Feb 07, 2005 17:23
We all feel this thing called love for the first time, and most of us are heartbroken after the loss of our first love. He was my first love, he was my first. I hoped he was my penguin, but I realized we were different. He like to lie to me and tell me the things I wanted to hear. He liked to use me, and he played Jen and me. But I guess we all live and learn. And though I wake up some days, wishing I could call him or text him, or email him...I don't. I am strong! Though there are constant reminders of him everywhere...voicemails I haven't gotten the courage to delete, text messages I havent gotten the courage to delete, pictures I haven't burned yet (LOL), And those little red reminders in my glove compartment..ha! Then there's the letters, the notebook, the CD's, the songs...uh...so much. But I haven't cried in almost a week.
There is someone out there for me...Someday we'll find each other. There will be passion, truth, love, and dreams. There will be ups and downs, I know that. But now I know when enough is enough, and I know what not to believe from a lover. Lessons learned.
The world will not end, nor will I. Life is beautiful, despite our losses.
I am coming home for spring break!!!! I cant wait to see everyone!!!! I miss home so much!!!!
Keep smiling...Until next time...
Love Kristen