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Tim and i broke up. its so weird, i dont feel single yet. not really sure how i feel at all. i know its for the best. we both still love each other, but not in the same way, not like being IN love. and we broke up on such good terms there is really nothing to yell about, which is great because we can be close, but it also hurts. i still want to cuddle him and care about him and rip his clothes off (not having regular sex is going to suck) and because we still live together and are in the same band, its just so messy and i dont know where the boundaries should be, especially seeing as we both still like eachother heaps.
its like we've gone back to crushing on eachother, which is kinda confusing me. and i cant get the space i need to sort myself out. Tim doesnt have a problem with spending 24/7 with me, which i kinda resent. its like im a mess and hes taking it ok. its not like i want him to feel like poo, but im jealous of how he is coping. or appears to be coping.
anyway, i have to go practice for the gigs we have coming up. 3 gigs in 3 days!! whoo!
its like we've gone back to crushing on eachother, which is kinda confusing me. and i cant get the space i need to sort myself out. Tim doesnt have a problem with spending 24/7 with me, which i kinda resent. its like im a mess and hes taking it ok. its not like i want him to feel like poo, but im jealous of how he is coping. or appears to be coping.
anyway, i have to go practice for the gigs we have coming up. 3 gigs in 3 days!! whoo!