Still in India, but no longer still ill
So I have been in India for almost two months and I have 9 days left. I have to say that at this point I am pretty eager to leave. It is a fiercely fascinating country, but with that it is also fiercely frustrating, especially as you go north in the country. It really has brought out an angry and bitchy side to me that I am not liking about myself. I am so tired of the touts, rip offs, sleazy men, filth and confronting poverty, that this angry defensive side in me has emerged. I can almost relate to how celebrities get so frustrated with the paparazzies, because frankly it does get old to have your space constantly invaded.
I do not want to paint a vulgar picture of India. It is a country of extremes and there are lovely people and lovely places. I just think I am at the mark where I am tired and need to have my space. I did head up north for a few weeks in the Himalayas where the Dalai Lama lives and were many Tibetan refugees reside. I finally felt at peace there and I think that is where I realized how tense I have been in India. I have talked to other travelers and my sentiments about India are common, especially for women. It is just a damn hard country to travel though. Regardless, I am glad I did it and I will be forever changed, hopefully for the better. I have a new appreciation for life and a sense of confidence, because if you can do India then I really think you can do anything.
Now I just need to take it one day at a time as my India trip comes to an end. I really hope I can drain myself of all this angst and find enjoyment in the rest of this trip. Because when it comes down to it, I am damn lucky to be able to have the opportunity to travel through here.
I do not want to paint a vulgar picture of India. It is a country of extremes and there are lovely people and lovely places. I just think I am at the mark where I am tired and need to have my space. I did head up north for a few weeks in the Himalayas where the Dalai Lama lives and were many Tibetan refugees reside. I finally felt at peace there and I think that is where I realized how tense I have been in India. I have talked to other travelers and my sentiments about India are common, especially for women. It is just a damn hard country to travel though. Regardless, I am glad I did it and I will be forever changed, hopefully for the better. I have a new appreciation for life and a sense of confidence, because if you can do India then I really think you can do anything.
Now I just need to take it one day at a time as my India trip comes to an end. I really hope I can drain myself of all this angst and find enjoyment in the rest of this trip. Because when it comes down to it, I am damn lucky to be able to have the opportunity to travel through here.