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When it rains, i poor
yep so a dissent day me and Sara Han were going to go try out for that Amarican Idol shit that Fox was putting on in Charolette but yea we dessided aginst it , imean if the real jugdes were there we whould have but it was just a contest for one person to get to have a paid trip to Chicago, and we didnt want to get up at 7 for that bullshit, it whould be something nice to tell your children, that wahat freaks me out about day to day life that it all means something becouse in 2050 amarican idol and serviver and all that shit isnt going ot be just some tv show its going to be the I love luci of the 2000's and thats a scary thought, I wint and hung out with Sara, Courtny and her friend Matt today we watched ECW one night stand, when I watched it on PPV i only got to see the last two matchs becose i was waiting for Charlee at a BP station nere her house, yea i missed a dame good PPV, in the past week i have had two white power girls try and talk to me, lol Chase Warren is big in the white power moment what the hell? i just want to say a few rashial jokes not go linchn' Courtny is convinced that the ression that i am so down is becouse i lission to country, becouse we were rideing around to get he something to eat, i on the outher had havent been ale to keep down anything but Alcohale, water and stake in the last week, yea Wooo is me becouse all i can eat is stake right? but yea so she changed the radio when LeAnn Rimes - Probably Wouldn't Be This Way * great song by the by* came on she turned it to 93.3 and it was playing the new papa roach song " I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And my scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel " she quicly appalogized and turned it back to the privious station it was a funny momment, but yea Ariel called tonight * ignores the thunder clapping behind him* and we talked, " i feal like im trating you just like Charlee did and you desirve better" that was nice to hear we rambled on avoiding big questions and sutch well she did i let a few slip but hay isnt that what i always do? i said something that got her iratated and she let me go im to intoxicated to remember exzcly what that was but she said she wohuld think about calling tomarrow night i will hold my breath, i think i will look better in blue okay well im drunk becouse hay what elts is there to do, and for those who are worred no im not going to turn in to a sleeping pill addict or an alcohalic i havent been drinking that much like 3 times in 2 weeks that alot for me but non habit forming and only takeing sleeping pills once im not going to become an addict for her, even thow addition is timpting not the addiction it self the going to rehad being sarounded by people who are constatly saying " evry thing is going to be okay" not that bad of a time i think so i will added all the outher sintsless stuff that i have been thinking lately tomarrwo i will probly have nouthing elts to do, so i am off to have the same fucked up dream
" I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me moments grace
Cause if I'd nevber seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way "
