Chase Warren : the one hit wounder of your heart
okay im drunk and this is my Journal, so thats what im useing it as my
journal nouthing more and nouthing less so if you dont want to get the
same info as you whould if you wint in to a paper book in my room than
dont click the link only ression im posting this simi publicaly becouse
#1 i dont have a paper journal and #2 i got nouthing to hide
okay so yea im gessing me and Ariel are on a brake or over or what ever, i have always thought of a brake as i nicer way of saying" I dont want to go threw a messy brake up so lets not talk for a cuple of days then have a disdant phone conversation then just fade off in to obscuraty" this never works for me i need my romantic drives to end in car crashs not running out of gas, i gess its for the best i dont realy feal like myself sints we have been talking well sints July 8th she broke up with me on that day " nouthing will change" but also the next day i did a bond for 5000$ and didnt do the paper work thouroly and everything at work has been hell sints thing seam to be looking up talked ot Eric and that seams to be paved over now just need to do the next bonds correctly and pass that fucking test i went back down to Columbia and took the class agine and that was good i believe it all depinds on if i pass the test or not a person that was there when i took the enishal class whas there he said he had to take the test 3 times to pass it you can only take the test 6 times in one year thats the ression that i wasnt in sutch a hell fire hurry to take it and spind $64 on a test that i just failed i mean i only faied it by 2 questions i just feal so out of plass at those classes im in a class room with 15-20 people all 35 or older talking about inshurants being 20 and a high school drop out while thay talk about what collage that wint to but hay thats saying something about me being able to keep up with them correct? but i think it all will work out in the end i know it will, been talking to Charles alot about the tattoo shop we are looking for around a Feb. opaning date anoff to take advantage of the session been hang out there trying to pick up on the bissness side anoff but not anoff to have the current boss get saspishious, I think tomarrow or the next day im going ot have to call DSS on a mouter to get her 3 children taken from her or at lest threaten to and have the willingness to bakc it up, this whould be alot easyer if it was before this whole relashionship spell i mean now looking back i realy didnt want to get back with Charlee i just wanted to avenge past heart acke i always felt like a secrit with her like an inbarisment like the bordroom exzecatives s&m collection at home i dont want to be stuffed in a closet I'm a great guy good job, dissint looking great sints of humor and great in bed but i gess i should get use to fealing like an inbaresment, Charlee called on the 4th of July she was beating around the bush as finaly got to " me and David broke up and i was woundring if you whould like to come up and get a milkshake with me " i replyed no i have already upgreaded" you have no idea how liberateing that was but anoff abot that cunt i dont care if i never lay eyes on her agine, im done with Charlee Hunt and now makeing the transishion from Little River rd. to Hill dr. I realy dont know what she is wanting me to do, what is her hopes he acts as thow i can just turn off and on my emotions im a cancer great with money HORRIBUL with emotions let alone sints i dont show many people them no matter what happens there are lines i never want to forget " when you die i will be right beside you" " i want this to last all night long" and " im just driveing around so you wont go home" great stuff, she might thing im all wanting to cut my wrist about it but any way you look at what transpired between us for 2-3 mouths i come out ahead of where i was in the begining i have to keep reminding myself that she is still 17 i mean i cant imagen someone saying the thing that i have been telling her at 17 no wounder she is running away? so what will happen i have no idea hopeful she gradjuates in may\ april i mean we have our whole lives ahead of us maybe when we are 25 we get in touch and run off togeather, the main problem is she is still in high school and the dissdance, but we bouth kinda knew that from the word go, she realy never got to see me in a calm state i hope she will before its all over and who knows maybe we will never speak agine this is how you know i am drunk its all relative nouthing matters thats a good fealing, but i wint up there for my birthday and had a great time one of the best birthdays that i have had, but usualy i like to have a calm birthday no big thrills but this last Purgatory was a fun time, now when i exspan it, it will sound like nouthing speshial but it was a good one well she came down to Charolette for i believe 5 days and she brought down her friend Matt becouse he was haveing some family trubles or something of that natcur, anyways she kept reminding me that she wasnt comeing down here to visit me but to visit loki and brandon becouse thay have been working on this for years and dont want to take time away from them cool, i did sujest sleeping with her everynight but that was more so she whouldnt be clinged to ever time she saw me, but yea that all hit the fan, something about Loki and Brandon still holding grudges frm when i use to hang out with Christ witch to me atlest seams like light years in the past but hay if thay want to hold that dislike for that long atlest a year and a half then thats all on them, any ways on to the story basicly she said she was going to hang out with me for one day she never did and the only time we got to see each outher was purg and that was truly the worst case sanario, becosue no matter what im going to be drunk at purgatory becouse i will just feal sad for most of the people there if im not drunk, so i get liqiored up and go off to purg and i think i spint like 2 - 2 1/2 hours just walking around my firned Mareian was sapose to accompany me but she couldnt witch i think is the best i was to drunk to show anyone attion, but so i walk around a little while and find my good ol' buddy Twiggy good to see her agine she is a cool chicka,i need to try and gte her # i think she is still liveing on 36th street but anyways she bought me a Red bull and Vodka and while waiting on it i catch up with Ariel in the crowed, down the drink and are convo way * kicking her leg* " hay i been trying to find you alot of bald heads in her * i wave for her to step closer* * she shakes her head no and goes over to loki* and i still had some vodka in the Truck so i had to down that and not space it out becosue i wanted to get realy drunk realy fast and realy sober realy quick so i chould drive somewhat so i go out to the truck and drink and she sinds me a text asking me to come back and seeing as thow i was plainng to come back in any fashion i returned she caught me in out side in front of purg and talked to me i realy dont remimber saying anything out of the way i do remimber " i need to get drunk to injoy the music" and " you care? promice? " she was saying something about not wanting me to drink any more drinks and giveing her my keys, i realy wanted to say " your name isnt Ariel Warren so dont try and give me any demands " so i know i wasnt realy that drunk becouse i didint say it, she wanted my keys and i whouldnt give them to her i mean realy she was hardly talking to me and wanting me to give her my keys? my luck she whould have left purg with out giveing them back, but i start makeing the rounds agine becouse she is acting all uncufterbul and what not, ran in to a cuple of familer faces and then i ran in to Kitty and Ami, i have had a threesome with Kitty and Ami, and thay were clearly wanting to revisit the past and there was only one girl i wanted to have any sexual relashions with there and neather of them were it now dont get me wrong thay are lovely girls but im a one woman man " its not who loves you its who you love" so im haveing to politly find those two off that keep finding me and the full efect of the booze is wearing off so i ask Ariel to come get a prezent i have for her out in the truck, and now she cant go back out side who knows, so i leve and she sinds me a message on my phone " I regret everything i do, i do it so i dont hurt and as you walk away all i want is for you to stay, call me when you get home i will answer" but yea when i get home she is still going to be at purg and i deffantly dont want to talk to her after the night of purg becosue she is just going to be sleepy or hurting from where platforms all night long, so i wnt back to purg drove the wrong way threw a parking lot to do it :) nice and text her back to coem to the parking lot right out side the doors " i cant" so i go in and wait around to be talked to and it never comes to past for 30 mins so i get my self one last brew and say my good buys wich i forgot to do the first time and set off, i think she is mad now becouse i didnt stay and watch her dance, but she said she was going to dance like as soon as i was turning around, but i get home fine and dont worry people who realy havent seen me drunk i was sober anoff to drive trust me on that i was just still intoxicated anoff not to cear if i got in a car wreck and for someone who cares to much to let go like that is an AMAZING fealing infact i had 2 cops pass me on my way home so i believe i ws being safe, not the smartest thing to do but if you see the lines above you can tell im not the best at dissishion makeing :) but what realy got to me is that she never called to see if i was alright nouthing i mean it realy didnt bouther me then, and realy dosnt bouther me now but in the sober lan inbatween it urked me but this dame thing is long anoff so im gonig to go lay down now if there are anything elts i think of i will put it up tomarrow
i hope you think of me everytime you see the snow fall and there is a tundra in every dream and a blizzerd ever time you blink
okay so yea im gessing me and Ariel are on a brake or over or what ever, i have always thought of a brake as i nicer way of saying" I dont want to go threw a messy brake up so lets not talk for a cuple of days then have a disdant phone conversation then just fade off in to obscuraty" this never works for me i need my romantic drives to end in car crashs not running out of gas, i gess its for the best i dont realy feal like myself sints we have been talking well sints July 8th she broke up with me on that day " nouthing will change" but also the next day i did a bond for 5000$ and didnt do the paper work thouroly and everything at work has been hell sints thing seam to be looking up talked ot Eric and that seams to be paved over now just need to do the next bonds correctly and pass that fucking test i went back down to Columbia and took the class agine and that was good i believe it all depinds on if i pass the test or not a person that was there when i took the enishal class whas there he said he had to take the test 3 times to pass it you can only take the test 6 times in one year thats the ression that i wasnt in sutch a hell fire hurry to take it and spind $64 on a test that i just failed i mean i only faied it by 2 questions i just feal so out of plass at those classes im in a class room with 15-20 people all 35 or older talking about inshurants being 20 and a high school drop out while thay talk about what collage that wint to but hay thats saying something about me being able to keep up with them correct? but i think it all will work out in the end i know it will, been talking to Charles alot about the tattoo shop we are looking for around a Feb. opaning date anoff to take advantage of the session been hang out there trying to pick up on the bissness side anoff but not anoff to have the current boss get saspishious, I think tomarrow or the next day im going ot have to call DSS on a mouter to get her 3 children taken from her or at lest threaten to and have the willingness to bakc it up, this whould be alot easyer if it was before this whole relashionship spell i mean now looking back i realy didnt want to get back with Charlee i just wanted to avenge past heart acke i always felt like a secrit with her like an inbarisment like the bordroom exzecatives s&m collection at home i dont want to be stuffed in a closet I'm a great guy good job, dissint looking great sints of humor and great in bed but i gess i should get use to fealing like an inbaresment, Charlee called on the 4th of July she was beating around the bush as finaly got to " me and David broke up and i was woundring if you whould like to come up and get a milkshake with me " i replyed no i have already upgreaded" you have no idea how liberateing that was but anoff abot that cunt i dont care if i never lay eyes on her agine, im done with Charlee Hunt and now makeing the transishion from Little River rd. to Hill dr. I realy dont know what she is wanting me to do, what is her hopes he acts as thow i can just turn off and on my emotions im a cancer great with money HORRIBUL with emotions let alone sints i dont show many people them no matter what happens there are lines i never want to forget " when you die i will be right beside you" " i want this to last all night long" and " im just driveing around so you wont go home" great stuff, she might thing im all wanting to cut my wrist about it but any way you look at what transpired between us for 2-3 mouths i come out ahead of where i was in the begining i have to keep reminding myself that she is still 17 i mean i cant imagen someone saying the thing that i have been telling her at 17 no wounder she is running away? so what will happen i have no idea hopeful she gradjuates in may\ april i mean we have our whole lives ahead of us maybe when we are 25 we get in touch and run off togeather, the main problem is she is still in high school and the dissdance, but we bouth kinda knew that from the word go, she realy never got to see me in a calm state i hope she will before its all over and who knows maybe we will never speak agine this is how you know i am drunk its all relative nouthing matters thats a good fealing, but i wint up there for my birthday and had a great time one of the best birthdays that i have had, but usualy i like to have a calm birthday no big thrills but this last Purgatory was a fun time, now when i exspan it, it will sound like nouthing speshial but it was a good one well she came down to Charolette for i believe 5 days and she brought down her friend Matt becouse he was haveing some family trubles or something of that natcur, anyways she kept reminding me that she wasnt comeing down here to visit me but to visit loki and brandon becouse thay have been working on this for years and dont want to take time away from them cool, i did sujest sleeping with her everynight but that was more so she whouldnt be clinged to ever time she saw me, but yea that all hit the fan, something about Loki and Brandon still holding grudges frm when i use to hang out with Christ witch to me atlest seams like light years in the past but hay if thay want to hold that dislike for that long atlest a year and a half then thats all on them, any ways on to the story basicly she said she was going to hang out with me for one day she never did and the only time we got to see each outher was purg and that was truly the worst case sanario, becosue no matter what im going to be drunk at purgatory becouse i will just feal sad for most of the people there if im not drunk, so i get liqiored up and go off to purg and i think i spint like 2 - 2 1/2 hours just walking around my firned Mareian was sapose to accompany me but she couldnt witch i think is the best i was to drunk to show anyone attion, but so i walk around a little while and find my good ol' buddy Twiggy good to see her agine she is a cool chicka,i need to try and gte her # i think she is still liveing on 36th street but anyways she bought me a Red bull and Vodka and while waiting on it i catch up with Ariel in the crowed, down the drink and are convo way * kicking her leg* " hay i been trying to find you alot of bald heads in her * i wave for her to step closer* * she shakes her head no and goes over to loki* and i still had some vodka in the Truck so i had to down that and not space it out becosue i wanted to get realy drunk realy fast and realy sober realy quick so i chould drive somewhat so i go out to the truck and drink and she sinds me a text asking me to come back and seeing as thow i was plainng to come back in any fashion i returned she caught me in out side in front of purg and talked to me i realy dont remimber saying anything out of the way i do remimber " i need to get drunk to injoy the music" and " you care? promice? " she was saying something about not wanting me to drink any more drinks and giveing her my keys, i realy wanted to say " your name isnt Ariel Warren so dont try and give me any demands " so i know i wasnt realy that drunk becouse i didint say it, she wanted my keys and i whouldnt give them to her i mean realy she was hardly talking to me and wanting me to give her my keys? my luck she whould have left purg with out giveing them back, but i start makeing the rounds agine becouse she is acting all uncufterbul and what not, ran in to a cuple of familer faces and then i ran in to Kitty and Ami, i have had a threesome with Kitty and Ami, and thay were clearly wanting to revisit the past and there was only one girl i wanted to have any sexual relashions with there and neather of them were it now dont get me wrong thay are lovely girls but im a one woman man " its not who loves you its who you love" so im haveing to politly find those two off that keep finding me and the full efect of the booze is wearing off so i ask Ariel to come get a prezent i have for her out in the truck, and now she cant go back out side who knows, so i leve and she sinds me a message on my phone " I regret everything i do, i do it so i dont hurt and as you walk away all i want is for you to stay, call me when you get home i will answer" but yea when i get home she is still going to be at purg and i deffantly dont want to talk to her after the night of purg becosue she is just going to be sleepy or hurting from where platforms all night long, so i wnt back to purg drove the wrong way threw a parking lot to do it :) nice and text her back to coem to the parking lot right out side the doors " i cant" so i go in and wait around to be talked to and it never comes to past for 30 mins so i get my self one last brew and say my good buys wich i forgot to do the first time and set off, i think she is mad now becouse i didnt stay and watch her dance, but she said she was going to dance like as soon as i was turning around, but i get home fine and dont worry people who realy havent seen me drunk i was sober anoff to drive trust me on that i was just still intoxicated anoff not to cear if i got in a car wreck and for someone who cares to much to let go like that is an AMAZING fealing infact i had 2 cops pass me on my way home so i believe i ws being safe, not the smartest thing to do but if you see the lines above you can tell im not the best at dissishion makeing :) but what realy got to me is that she never called to see if i was alright nouthing i mean it realy didnt bouther me then, and realy dosnt bouther me now but in the sober lan inbatween it urked me but this dame thing is long anoff so im gonig to go lay down now if there are anything elts i think of i will put it up tomarrow
i hope you think of me everytime you see the snow fall and there is a tundra in every dream and a blizzerd ever time you blink