I am doing a lot better this holiday season than I was during the last one...
Thanksgiving weekend was great. I went to two lovely Thanksgiving dinners on Thursday, and I had my Thanksgiving dinner on Saturday, as usual. I had 15 people here for dinner this year, and I had a wonderful time.
Last year, I didn't get a Yule/Christmas tree until December 23rd when I ended up going to buy one alone in the rain. This year, though, Mark (
meadmaker) and I took an afternoon off together during the week after Thanksgiving to buy a Yule tree. We picked Zoe up after school with the tree on top of the car, and she was very excited! At that point, I was feeling quite hopeful about the upcoming holidays.
I knew that this year would be hard for me again, so I had invited a few of my closest friends over to trim my tree on Saturday, the 6th. That gave me a deadline to get the living room ready for the holidays, and I thought it would help me get a positive start to the Yule/Christmas season. It didn't really work out that way, though, and I am struggling to hold onto my hopeful mood as a result.
There was a bunch of drama surrounding my holiday gathering. One of my friends refused to attend because another one of my friends rejected her FB friend request. I really didn't enjoy having that drama played out at my expense. There has been vaguebooking on FB all week, and it sounds like there will be further drama surrounding our company holiday party. *sigh*
I only get so many holiday seasons, and I _refuse_ to surrender another one to the same sorrows and stresses that claimed the last one. I have a number of fun and meaningful events planned over the next few weeks, and I am going to do my best to enjoy them, regardless of what other people are doing.
Mark and I are going to see "A Christmas Carol" at the North Shore Music Theater tomorrow. We have our company holiday party on Tuesday. Next weekend will be our coven's Yule celebration, and I am officiating -- I'm very excited about that! On Monday, the 22nd, Mark will come over for a Yule celebration with me and my kids. Then I'll celebrate Christmas Eve and Christmas with my kids later that week. Santa normally comes to Pagan children's houses on Yule, but it is important to Zoe that he come on Christmas, so I've asked him to come then.
I am not sure what I'll be doing for New Year's Eve yet, and I am somewhat stressed about that. New Year's Eve was another time that was particularly awful for me last year, and I hope it will be better this year.
I am a little nervous about the fact that I haven't actually started my holiday shopping yet… I have started to put together a list, though, and I'm thinking about what to give to all of the people I love.