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i am so not happy at the moment. my job is totally sucking hard ass. i keep working as hard as i can and they keep just being insane to me. i am so tired of working there but alas i dont know why but i dont want to leave. so i am staying at a job i am loosing all patience for and i have troubles with my romantic life. there is a guy i am sort of seeing. he is nice and all the smells work plus he is nice in the sack but alas he is shorter than me. i know i am shallow and all that bad stuff but i just cant bring myself to date him. i hate feeling shallow. i know i am i just dont like to think about it all the time. as long as we a horizontal things are fine cause i cant tell but when we stand next to each other it just seems weird. so i think i have covered everything... sucky job, sucky romantic life... oh i have forgotten just one thing. kay is going to iowa city to go see a kerouac manuscript on thursday and i so wanted to go but i cant cause i have to work and the only person i could seitch with thinks i am an asshole so there is no hope of that. yep atleast when it gets this bad its is suprisingly easy to get better.