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When I don't come here often I tend to forget just what is so important about this place for me.
In 'real life' I don't talk about sex much at all. As far as my general circle of friends goes, I have virtually no sexuality. We relate in completely different ways.
Yet when no one 'sees' a part of you, in some ways it ceases to exist from your real world and becomes just another part of your imaginary one. Sure, I have sex with myself in some fashion or other at least once a day, but if it only ever exists as something I do alone then it is just as much in my mind as it is real in any objective sense of the word.
Maybe that's why I take so many photos of myself . . . because I can look at them and say 'yes, that did happen, it wasn't just in my imagination' and I can react to them and interact with them and in so doing make my sex life more 'real' than it would otherwise be.
So anyway, it's nice to have somewhere to go where I can say "I have a sexuality" and someone will say "yes, I can see that". That's actually very important and I don't think I appreciate it as much as I should.
In 'real life' I don't talk about sex much at all. As far as my general circle of friends goes, I have virtually no sexuality. We relate in completely different ways.
Yet when no one 'sees' a part of you, in some ways it ceases to exist from your real world and becomes just another part of your imaginary one. Sure, I have sex with myself in some fashion or other at least once a day, but if it only ever exists as something I do alone then it is just as much in my mind as it is real in any objective sense of the word.
Maybe that's why I take so many photos of myself . . . because I can look at them and say 'yes, that did happen, it wasn't just in my imagination' and I can react to them and interact with them and in so doing make my sex life more 'real' than it would otherwise be.
So anyway, it's nice to have somewhere to go where I can say "I have a sexuality" and someone will say "yes, I can see that". That's actually very important and I don't think I appreciate it as much as I should.