My Venting...
Girls are so fucking confusing one min. they are on top of u the next they dont want to see u...and then we get the wrong impressions and make fools of ourselves when the girl decides its best to just be friends so that we never have any problems in the future...Bullshit, i thought everything in my life was starting to make sense and that i was goin to finally have less stress in my life...School sucks soooo much to read sooo little time, too much work is killing me....i have no life, i go from school to work to home and stay....AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH i wish i could just go somewhere where I can be free of my shit... and i honestly believe that i am goin to be alone all my life with not one person to be with....i just want to get away from all this, i want to go somewhere where nobody knows me...i feel like i have to go outside with fists up, i hate my life, i hate it soo much...nothing good every comes out of it...all the girls i like get taken away, become psycho/ randomly become family members or are not interested...wat is wrong with me, is there something that i do or say that girls feel like they cant be with me...FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK....this is how i feel, i want to curl up in a ball in the corner of my room and disappear just to see how ppl. react to me being gone...one fault that i have with girls is that i feel like if i go out with them i will end up marrying them, cuz all my bros did that with there firsts....oh God y is life sooooooo confusing, and i wish that ppl didnt beat around the bush and just told me st8 out how they feel...i've held shit back and i still do, but thats so that i dont hurt anybody, cuz i kno wat i say will and i dont want ppl to feel like how i feel i want them to live their life without having to worry of what ppl think...my chest feels sooo heavy and my eyes and brain feel soo tired, i dont kno wat to do anymore, i feel like what happened to Jmo and Sofa's teacher that she got stiff cuz of all her stress will happen to me...and u kno wat else rents are assholes, i dont care wat anybody says, they are...i feel like just telling mine off for treating me like a lil kid, IM FUCKING 20 GOIN ON 21 Y ARE U STILL TREATING ME LIKE A LIL KID....i hate that same excuse of its not u its other ppl, well rents i see through ur bullshit and i honestly dont care if u dont think im responsible, i m young i m suppose to experience shit thats how somebody learns, not by stories...And my boss needs to fucking calm the fuck down, smile for once god dammit, and stop getting pissed over something soo stupid that nobody cares much of...i wish i could say all this and more without the consequences...
-eddie
-eddie