First playlist of the semester!
Yesterday, I did nine hours' worth of homework. This included a ton of reading, a writing response, and drawing up my proposal for my Honors Thesis. The worst part? I'd already been doing just as much work the rest of the week. What the hell? Why am I always struggling to keep pace, even though I work my ass off? It seems like everyone else has time to go bowling, and go to the mall, and actually get out there and participate in society. Me? I go to work, I go to school, and I do homework almost every waking moment. I haven't touched any of my own writing in two weeks, and it's making me crazy.
Last night, I worked until Mad Men came on, then I watched that and went to bed. Yeah, I was so physically exhausted, but mentally WIRED, that I got less than four hours of sleep. Today, I still have another reading response to do, and I have to do some big time editing on my proposal. And everyone keeps expecting brilliant and awesome things, because they believe in me, and it makes me feel like a fraud and a hack. People think I'm smart? SO NOT THAT SMART. It just looks that way because I work myself into frenzies like this. I only have a few hours to make these AWESOME, and then I have to go to work.
Right now, I feel very poorly, that's for sure. I hate it when people expect me to make something awesome, because I cannot help but feel that I am going to disappoint them big time. Their faith in me is an honor, but I always feel like I'm going to fail them.
Arg. Here goes. Music to get me through this next little while of madness!
1. "After the Fall"--TSO, "Beethoven's Last Night" (yeah, that's an auspicious beginning)
2. "Why Should I Worry"--Billy Joel (much better!)
3. "Somebody to Love"--"Glee" version
4. "Mr. Tambourine Man"--Bob Dylan
5. "Defying Gravity"--"Wicked" OBC
6. "I'm Still Here"--John Rzeznik
7. "I'll be Seeing You"--Billie Holiday
MEDIEVAL LIT READING RESPONSE IS DONE!!!!! I don't how, but I went from having nothing to say to actually filling that damn page. King Alfred is keeping me up nights. He's just lucky I like him.
Okay, onto proposal. Which is ACTUALLY keeping me up nights, because I don't want to come across as stupid as I feel and I don't want to let anybody down. :/
1. "Good Morning Baltimore"--"Hairspray" Movie Soundtrack
2. "Somewhere Over the Rainbow/What a Wonderful World"--Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
3. "Wouldn't it be Loverly"--"My Fair Lady" Movie Soundtrack
4. "Almost There"--"Princess and the Frog" OST
5. "La Vie en Rose"--Edith Piaf
6. "Don't Stop Believin'"--"Glee" version
7. "Colors of the Wind"--"Pocahontas"
8. "Prince of Peace"--TSO, "Christmas Eve and Other Stories"
9. "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now"--"Cats Don't Dance" OST
10. "River of Dreams"--Billy Joel
11. "Hey Soul Sister"--Train (you know I had to)
12. "Paperback Writer"--The Beatles
13. "Belle"--BatB OST
OH HOLY CRAP I FINISHED!!!!
And with 15 mins to spare. Lord. Okay, I'm going to do my OTHER homework now, before I get my pharmacy on. I have a horrible feeling it's going to be crazy busy tonight too.
Sleep is for the weak, dude.