Okay....

Jul 21, 2012 11:12


First of all- the comment on how to respond to Baptist Bible Belters really cracked me up.
I didn't understand a word of the reply- I'm hoping that was the point.
Seriously- I was most upset because I was missing 1776.
It was at that dramatic- Molasses to rum to slaves part.
I don't need any distractions at that part.

And second of all- I mulled things over while I turned a cold shoulder to GG.
I called him at the usual times, but I kept conversation short and sweet.
Well, maybe not so sweet.
At times like this I have to render myself emotionless.
I have to turn to ice.
Until the temper flares chill out.
Because I didn't want to say or do anything I knew I would regret later on.
And while I tried to cool off- I kept reminding myself that GG is my friend.
Above anything...we're friends.
So, I emailed him a letter explaining my anger.
How he and my son both hurt my feelings.
How he had hurt me before.
And that I just needed time to settle down.
Not long after- he called me to tell me he never meant to hurt my feelings.
That he knew he stepped in it- but remembering my temper from high school- he waited until I was ready to talk about it.
And when I was ready to talk about it- he told me he's unaware of his tone of voice and hadn't realized he shouts at me when he panics that something bad will happen to me.
And that's his greatest fear- that something bad will happen to me.
He understands that I'm not made of fine porcelain.
But he worries nonetheless.
And I have to understand that he worries about me.
And that anything that hurts me- hurts him, too.
Then he asked if we were still friends? Still pals? still buddies?
And I decided not to punch him in the throat or jab his eyeballs out.
So, I think that might be the key right there.

I'm an impossible person to get along with.
But he tolerates me because we're friends.
And though he gets on my nerves at times, and we argue a lot- we almost always end up laughing together.
Because we're friends.

Being a friend is a difficult task.
Being a devoted significant other- even more so.
But when all else fails- we have our friendship to go back to and build upon and rebuild upon whenever we fall out.
And I think that's the tie that will bind us together from here on out.

Besides- he has a lot of my DVDs over at his place.

So that's the crux of it.
It's not paradise- but every now and then, it can be Six Flags over Texas!
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