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Alright. I've been meaning to update for a while, just because there's no one around in the hamptons I can talk at right now.
by the way, I am indeed out here. I'll probably be spending saturday in the city, though, to meet up with shannon and whoever else. If you're around, maybe we can do lunch or something ridiculously cliche like that.
Anyway, life out here has so far proven to be relaxing and fun. It's really nice just to be away from the kids for a while. they were loud and smelly, if fun and adorable at times. My dad and I found two pretty big matching JBL monitors at the dump, like 4 feet tall and 1.5 feet wide. I can't wait to test them out-- they might end up in my room!
I'm also making a little battery-powered practice amp for my bass. just 1 or 2 watts, with a leetle beety speaker so I can hear what I'm doing.
I figured out how to get movies to play on my laptop, and am now downloading like 30 different movies at once. I seriously need to catch up on my filmgeekness and readinggeekness. I haven't read nearly any books or watched any movies this summer.
I've been riding my bike a lot, which is a lot of fun. took the first horseback riding lesson of my year on saturday, too.
by the way, it was my birthday on friday-- I'm 16. motherfuckin' 16. maybe I should have a sweet 16 party? I tried to get my learner's permit, but they were being bitchy about social security and I'll rant about it some other time.
Anyway, I guess what's been on the back of my mind for a while is CTY and what happens next.
I guess I'm really just conflicted. I'm ready to leave CTY-- I really am. CTY has taught me a lot, and I love it very much and will carry it with me for the rest of my life. I want to move on do all this growing up stuff everyone's so big on, and start using what I've learned. But I miss it. a lot. It's like leaving home- and CTY really is home- I'm ready, but it doesn't keep me from missing it. CTY was a really safe place. I've never been freer or more at ease than there. And while every previous year I have been able to live life outside of CTY because it has always been there to return to, it's a scary thing now that i can't go back. I have no safety net anymore. So, I guess I'll move on. I'm having a great time out here, and I frankly can't wait until school starts again. But every time I think about CTY I get a little pang. I don't expect it to go away.
by the way, I am indeed out here. I'll probably be spending saturday in the city, though, to meet up with shannon and whoever else. If you're around, maybe we can do lunch or something ridiculously cliche like that.
Anyway, life out here has so far proven to be relaxing and fun. It's really nice just to be away from the kids for a while. they were loud and smelly, if fun and adorable at times. My dad and I found two pretty big matching JBL monitors at the dump, like 4 feet tall and 1.5 feet wide. I can't wait to test them out-- they might end up in my room!
I'm also making a little battery-powered practice amp for my bass. just 1 or 2 watts, with a leetle beety speaker so I can hear what I'm doing.
I figured out how to get movies to play on my laptop, and am now downloading like 30 different movies at once. I seriously need to catch up on my filmgeekness and readinggeekness. I haven't read nearly any books or watched any movies this summer.
I've been riding my bike a lot, which is a lot of fun. took the first horseback riding lesson of my year on saturday, too.
by the way, it was my birthday on friday-- I'm 16. motherfuckin' 16. maybe I should have a sweet 16 party? I tried to get my learner's permit, but they were being bitchy about social security and I'll rant about it some other time.
Anyway, I guess what's been on the back of my mind for a while is CTY and what happens next.
I guess I'm really just conflicted. I'm ready to leave CTY-- I really am. CTY has taught me a lot, and I love it very much and will carry it with me for the rest of my life. I want to move on do all this growing up stuff everyone's so big on, and start using what I've learned. But I miss it. a lot. It's like leaving home- and CTY really is home- I'm ready, but it doesn't keep me from missing it. CTY was a really safe place. I've never been freer or more at ease than there. And while every previous year I have been able to live life outside of CTY because it has always been there to return to, it's a scary thing now that i can't go back. I have no safety net anymore. So, I guess I'll move on. I'm having a great time out here, and I frankly can't wait until school starts again. But every time I think about CTY I get a little pang. I don't expect it to go away.