Writer's Block: Bump In The Night
What are you afraid of?
I wonder if it's just me, or do you become more of afraid of things as you get older too? I can think back when I was sixteen and I really wasn't afraid, of anything. I really didn't think that I had anything to loose at that age, after I had my first child at the age of eighteen I looked at life and the world as coming from a whole different person. I was sitting here thinking about how many things that I am, or have been afraid of and then my mind starting wandering off into other thoughts, like it always does, and I realized that I am more afraid of things now that I have ever been, probably because I have so much more to loose.....
dying and leaving my two boys and husband behind, riding on airplanes, choking (due to a recent lunch out with my husband), natural disasters, tornados, lightening, earthquakes, the world ending (I know, I am weird), my kids getting hurt, or kidnapped, me not making the right choices or decisions in life or in parenting, getting fat (isn't every woman afraid of this?), looking like my mom (sorry mom), never rekindling my relationship with my father, never reaching my career goals in life, getting old, the faces of death, my first born growing up to be like his father, court, the government and how it works, my anxiety, any scary movie made after the year 2000, torture, politicians, illnesses, germs, loosing a loved oneg....
I guess that's all I could think of for right now, I am sure there are more, and I am not ever scared of all these things at once, or even right now, well some right now. The scariest thing is that all these things equal, LIFE. nuff said.
I wonder if it's just me, or do you become more of afraid of things as you get older too? I can think back when I was sixteen and I really wasn't afraid, of anything. I really didn't think that I had anything to loose at that age, after I had my first child at the age of eighteen I looked at life and the world as coming from a whole different person. I was sitting here thinking about how many things that I am, or have been afraid of and then my mind starting wandering off into other thoughts, like it always does, and I realized that I am more afraid of things now that I have ever been, probably because I have so much more to loose.....
dying and leaving my two boys and husband behind, riding on airplanes, choking (due to a recent lunch out with my husband), natural disasters, tornados, lightening, earthquakes, the world ending (I know, I am weird), my kids getting hurt, or kidnapped, me not making the right choices or decisions in life or in parenting, getting fat (isn't every woman afraid of this?), looking like my mom (sorry mom), never rekindling my relationship with my father, never reaching my career goals in life, getting old, the faces of death, my first born growing up to be like his father, court, the government and how it works, my anxiety, any scary movie made after the year 2000, torture, politicians, illnesses, germs, loosing a loved oneg....
I guess that's all I could think of for right now, I am sure there are more, and I am not ever scared of all these things at once, or even right now, well some right now. The scariest thing is that all these things equal, LIFE. nuff said.