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I just don't fit in with my family sometimes. The things I'm interested in don't interest them, vice versa. I can never talk as much as I want because they always get bored and change the subject. Maybe that's why I spend so much time shut up in my room or the basement. I wonder if they realize that I'm not always interested in what they have to say, but at least I make an effort to listen. God I feel so useless sometimes...so out of place in my own home and it's so stupid. I hate it, and I want to be with my friends. They listen to me.
Mom always tells me she's there for me if I need her, but sometimes I just feel like talking non-stop about something guitar-ish and she just won't care...and then she gets upset when I don't talk to her. Go figure.
I hate being so unhappy and I hate feeling like crap. That's why I like my internet friends...I can just search on livejournal for people with similar interests and, even if they are stalkers, I can talk as much as I want about things I like and people will talk back.
And I don't want to get lectured about this, Nicole. It's how I feel and only I know how I truly feel, so just let it go. Don't even bring it up because it's just stupid and I'm just stupid for feeling this way.
I want my billy...
soma time...
Mom always tells me she's there for me if I need her, but sometimes I just feel like talking non-stop about something guitar-ish and she just won't care...and then she gets upset when I don't talk to her. Go figure.
I hate being so unhappy and I hate feeling like crap. That's why I like my internet friends...I can just search on livejournal for people with similar interests and, even if they are stalkers, I can talk as much as I want about things I like and people will talk back.
And I don't want to get lectured about this, Nicole. It's how I feel and only I know how I truly feel, so just let it go. Don't even bring it up because it's just stupid and I'm just stupid for feeling this way.
I want my billy...
soma time...