stupid tv
so i have been feeling somewhat calm for the last few days (pms and all) - then while i was watching a design show on tv, this woman on it said, "its like when your heart gets broken and you think you will never fall in love again" and i burst into tears. i am so sad because i dont want to admit that i will be without my love forever but i do think that really is what will happen. when we talk, i want nothing more than to be with him, and hold him and tell him i love him and things will be ok. but i dont believe that things will be ok, i think there has been too much hurt and distrust and manipulation between us for things to ever be pure and good again. i want so much to recapture the feelings from us as we were - i was so happy in the beginning and i thought thats how love would feel forever. how does happily ever after work anyway? does anyone have that?