oops .. my bad ..
i realized today with a start that i forgot my father's birthday saturday - big ooops .. its one of the few days a year i actually call him and i totally forgot .. is it alright to say, sorry i am being a totally absorbed selfish bitch right now - you'll have another birthday next year, i'll remember that one, ok? not cool.
and then i (of course) blew off his wife's mothers day phone call. perhaps she has gotten past expecting a call from me by now. i am going straight to hell.
speaking of hell, mrmcmuffin called this morning in a panic over a big setback in a business deal that is cutting a lot of options that might have been available to him had it worked out. i felt horrible, listening to him say, "im so fuQ'd" over and over. he felt today like i have felt for the last few years and it tore my heart open to think he wouldnt be having this issue had i not left - and that it was me teaching the lesson in the end. i hated feeling so mean.
and then i (of course) blew off his wife's mothers day phone call. perhaps she has gotten past expecting a call from me by now. i am going straight to hell.
speaking of hell, mrmcmuffin called this morning in a panic over a big setback in a business deal that is cutting a lot of options that might have been available to him had it worked out. i felt horrible, listening to him say, "im so fuQ'd" over and over. he felt today like i have felt for the last few years and it tore my heart open to think he wouldnt be having this issue had i not left - and that it was me teaching the lesson in the end. i hated feeling so mean.