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Ok, I guess I should start this with saying, my marriage has definitely been an adventure. Sometimes good and sometimes not so good. I guess I look at this as my outlet. So from now on this is what this is going to be. The outlet for my life.
I am absolutely exstatic with my life right now. I have an absolutely wonderful husband. It hasnt always been that way. We went through a patch of roughness. I guess that was due to both of us. Both of us need to learn that the things we say affect how others feel. They may not always express their emotions orally, but they will let you know that you hurt them in other ways. I have to remember the trinity. There are three keys to a good relationship and they all have to be in balance. Affinity, reality and communication. I definitely find my husband to be the sexiest man alive. I try to accept him for all that he is. Although, I am still working on bearing through his music of Slipknot. But then again, I am sure he is not always thrilled with my choices either. But we have definitely come a long way with communicating. When we were just dating it was easier to say what was on our minds. Being married seems to make it more delicate because you dont really have a way to walk away. I mean sure there is divorce, but Chris and I dont really believe in divorce. It is such a horrible word. When I got married, I understood this is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. The marriage vows say until death do you part, not hard times. And I truly believed and meant those words when I professed them.
We just recently bought a house. We absolutely love it. Although it is starting to seem like the movie "The Money Pit". I suppose to be simple job, never turns out that way. Hell, hanging a damn light bulb in the closet had me screaming. Poor Chris in his sickly state, got out of bed to calm me down and magically fix the light bulb that had screws that were too short. God bless that man, he definitely has patience. Whereas with me, patience has never been my virtue. I am working on it. Lord knows I will need it if I ever want children. I have gotten better about my patience with my little brothers, but I am human and mess up every once in a while.
I am happy to say that Chris is trying new things and expanding his horizen with me. He accepts who I am. And he is willing to go out of his comfort zone to please me. Although, new things seem to please him too sometimes, hehehe! I cant help it. I am a crazy spirit who likes to have fun. Although, he has definitely tamed my spirit a bit. I am definitely not as crazy as I used to be. My past is my past, and it was fun at the time. Eventually, we all have to grow up.
Growing up though is not always fun. I am learning this is the job department. I hate bills. But at least I am starting my government job soon. No more lousy ass dead end jobs for me. I have seen where that leads and I cant say that I enjoy it. I want something stable that makes enough money for us to live comfortable. I am not saying I want to live in a mansion with diamonds everywhere. I just want enough money to not constantly feel like we are always having to budget. I want to be able to go to the store and if I see something I like, be able to buy it without worrying that we will not have enough money for our bills. Plus I want something with job security. I hate having to worry if this is the day I walk into work and get fired because the boss is having a bad day again.
But I dont really have to worry too much. Chris is always there for me no matter what. He has never said anything bad about me due to bad things I have caused. Like when I lost me purse. He never said a word. He just tried to calm me down and we went looking for it. I appreciate that. I appreciate that I do have a loving and understanding husband. It is still hard to believe that we have been together for 10 months and that we are married and have a house together.
For all the ups and downs in my life, I definitely feel blessed with my life.