Young and Nieve
i feel locked up in this asylumn we call school. Its like 3 more months of meaningless jabbering and drama. My relationships are always so fucked up. Nicholas and i are over...thank the lord...he is RIDICULOUS!! more ridiculous than any guy ive dated in the past year. I just wish that he would come to his senses. Its like i can see this person inside of him...this wonderful, intelligent, loving person who wants to preside...but he keeps letting his anger and his emotions get him. He is violent...verbally and physically and i dont want to get any closer to him for fear that this will get worse. We can just be playing around and something small will happen to upset him and he will blow his top. One time he shoved me into his car...ouch...i just got up, hopped in my car and drove away....i did not want to be around him after that. So i broke up with him because he was getting clingy...because i am leaving for college and because we cannot work while i am there. He is not giving me all i need as his girlfriend...i do not ask for much. anyway...he was really upset, obviously, and i tried to give him space and let him down easily..but i feel now he has spiraled out of control. Is there really any way to let a guy down easily?? because i have not found it. He is now trying to date this girl named hillary...a sophmore....a young nieve sophmore with a boyfriend...so this girl is going to break up with her poor boyfriend to date nick soley on the fact that she thinks he's cute and funny. There are other issues concerning her that id rather not get into because they are complicated. But now he has stooped to the level of getting a blowjob from his BEST FRIENDS GIRLFRIEND! WTF!?!?!? Im so fucking disgusted....i feel so gross....i dont even really want to speak to him or see him anymore...because i am with Brandon....who could be the most wonderful person ive ever met in my life.....im so happy :) :) :) :)