in love

[mrshmlooo]

every now and then i get to reading old journal entries...and i realize that i really miss the old days. I miss when me and micahel first met and when he first told me that he loved me. I miss when we were so passionate for each other that we were excited and spent time thinking of how to make a good impression the next time we went out. I miss when he used to think it was a big awsum deal that we would just talk on the phone...like he had been waiting hours for it. Or when he used to write anonomous thing about me on his livejournal saying that i was the one. He makes me so happy.....but at the same time i just feel like i dont have the impact on him that i used to, and i dont have the guts or the will to do what it takes to get that back....because i love him too much to do that to him and i dont want to let him go for one minute. I cant believe how much drama there was in our life and i look at it now and think.....do i have that now??? and im not sure i do. It almost feels like we are begining to become settled in each other, and i dont want us loving each other to just become routine....that would suck....i dunno what i want....it always changes...maybe something needs to happen...and maybe it doesnt...maybe that something will happen on its own one day without my help.....who knows

<3 Marshie