i want to make you suffer
I feel like fucking bashing someone's face in.....i feel like paying $30 for fake nails just so i can make u bleed....It is dangerous for me to have any time to myself to think...i go into breakdowns
though my day was uneventful and useless it was composed of panick attacks. I cant keep on topic when im bored, especially if i have something i need to do. It is amazing that i got as far as i did in this book. Though if u heard every thought floating through my head you might say i belong in it. I feel useless, lazy, insane.....i could rip any given person to shreads right now if they were in my clutches....
you know what? everyone has this little obsession/affair thing with music....fuck music....fuck all of it! Music could cease and die for all i care and i might smile through the rest of my life. Alls it does is make me cry...or dissatisfy me....you have a song that you love that you used to listen to--those make me cry..anything that has to do with my past, obviously, i dont want to hear them.
i have yet to find a recent song that i enjoy in full...
and bands...we wont go there...........
i bet my blood pressure is running higher than my mothers is right now....thats sad
you know what else is sad.....how many fucking clues to i need to send...its ridiculous....and i want to punch you in the face....
and maybe i wont see you all week long...that seems to be how you want it you ass.....
this house has got some sort of pull to it...i cannot stay in here much longer....or my brain will soon snap and they will cart me away while my loved ones be pulling at life giving tubes for the hell of it.
i will rip you apart-limb for limb
though my day was uneventful and useless it was composed of panick attacks. I cant keep on topic when im bored, especially if i have something i need to do. It is amazing that i got as far as i did in this book. Though if u heard every thought floating through my head you might say i belong in it. I feel useless, lazy, insane.....i could rip any given person to shreads right now if they were in my clutches....
you know what? everyone has this little obsession/affair thing with music....fuck music....fuck all of it! Music could cease and die for all i care and i might smile through the rest of my life. Alls it does is make me cry...or dissatisfy me....you have a song that you love that you used to listen to--those make me cry..anything that has to do with my past, obviously, i dont want to hear them.
i have yet to find a recent song that i enjoy in full...
and bands...we wont go there...........
i bet my blood pressure is running higher than my mothers is right now....thats sad
you know what else is sad.....how many fucking clues to i need to send...its ridiculous....and i want to punch you in the face....
and maybe i wont see you all week long...that seems to be how you want it you ass.....
this house has got some sort of pull to it...i cannot stay in here much longer....or my brain will soon snap and they will cart me away while my loved ones be pulling at life giving tubes for the hell of it.
i will rip you apart-limb for limb