too critical? really? oh
My voice teacher says I'm too critical of myself...maybe I am. Today in my voice lesson I felt like I was messing up all over the place, felt that I had no breath support...basically I felt blah. And then she tells me that I was doing great, I sounded awake, and it didn't sound like I had support problems at all. (She did say I needed to lift my soft pallet though. But that's not difficult.) And then we had this whole conversation about my self-consciousness. I don't know why I'm so self-conscious. I just am. But she told me that whenever I am in her studio, I am to complement myself whenever I get something right, or it sounds good, etc. She wants me to hear that praise in my head, instead of the negativity that I usually hold to. She said she didn't like seeing someone with so much talent put them selfs down so much, that I was too much of a perfectionist in my image, and shouldn't be. Well,I'll try. I really will, just as I have been trying with my other self-image issues for a while now. I'd like to be more confident in my image, and not just in my personality. (I'm not even that confident in that.) So next time I put myself down, call me out on it, please. Maybe if I'm more aware of when I do it, I can fix it better. Maybe. So here's to trying.