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aaaarrrrrgggggg! im awaiting this week a letter from manchester met crewe to see if i have got into do a pgce and am feeling the tension, im feeling it! they said that they would be deciding who would get in when we had finished the interviews on wednesday and get the results in the post asap so when i heard the mail this morn about half an hour ago i practically ran to the door....but arrr no avail :S its a bit like i know that it wont be the end of the world if dont get in as some positive always pops up somehwhere along the line.. the thought of having a job im not really into for a year and then re-applying (for the third time it would be) doesnt seem to appealing tho compared to getting in!
then me and the jim keep arguing all the time at the mo and its getting horrid. we've both got things on at the mo that we're thinking about that effect the future quite a bit so are both feeling it....we're feeling it, feeling it... and im having a personality crisis at the mo aswell! they seem tohappen when change happens as in the environemt around me...i think that going into a workplace with people with an average age over ten years higher than mine has made me really critically examine myself such as how i talk and come across. I need to find a way on first impressions to keep the essence of me (which i like to think is fairly bubbly and friendly) but at the same time seem assertive and not like i can easily be pushed around....tough combo....! on the whole i do love being at work tho...is a great place, nice ppl and just adore being around the kids, they make me smile daily :)
anywhoo, this week is also looking positive as have my birthday and that always mean agood excuse for a good bita grub and some good company :) am quite hyped as amongst the local types (eh eh) have jo and aysh coming up from notts fri and then am pretty sure have el, sparra and rick syers coming up from their random country locations for a bita fun :) i love getting everyone together.. am so proud that we have all managed to stay in contact even if minimal :)
im feeling the reading at the moment! have a little list of books lining up that id like to read! am on dan brown 'angels and demons' atm - it has taken a rather silence of the lambsish turn (which isnt really my style but hey i wana get it finished now im this far) and then i wana get philip pullman read (dark materials) then have: 2 more dan browns, the book about a boy with autism 'the curious incident...' (just hope it doesnt make autism seem all bad like a ch4 prog i watched a while ago), lots of terry pratchetts, hg wells war of the worlds and then me and jim found a new author the other day who writes sci fi fantasies called 'jasper fforde' the book we got is called 'the ayre affair' - jane eyre gets kidnapped from time and the main character 'thursday next' has to rescue her. has anyone read any of jasper ffordes? im a sucker for the overall fantasy genre and the original jane eyre is like one of my fave books so i thought id give it a go :)
anywhoo, amongst my emo-ing (ooh double meaning- my nickname from family used to be emo and to emo on is to moan)life is good....i do need to get another dose of beaur and 24 in soon tho...am having withdrawal symptoms...maybe beaur could make a special appearance formy birthday meal blow up the restaurant and then rescue me from rubble?! hum....that wouldnt do tho as i love my jim too much to run off with the Beaur ;P
then me and the jim keep arguing all the time at the mo and its getting horrid. we've both got things on at the mo that we're thinking about that effect the future quite a bit so are both feeling it....we're feeling it, feeling it... and im having a personality crisis at the mo aswell! they seem tohappen when change happens as in the environemt around me...i think that going into a workplace with people with an average age over ten years higher than mine has made me really critically examine myself such as how i talk and come across. I need to find a way on first impressions to keep the essence of me (which i like to think is fairly bubbly and friendly) but at the same time seem assertive and not like i can easily be pushed around....tough combo....! on the whole i do love being at work tho...is a great place, nice ppl and just adore being around the kids, they make me smile daily :)
anywhoo, this week is also looking positive as have my birthday and that always mean agood excuse for a good bita grub and some good company :) am quite hyped as amongst the local types (eh eh) have jo and aysh coming up from notts fri and then am pretty sure have el, sparra and rick syers coming up from their random country locations for a bita fun :) i love getting everyone together.. am so proud that we have all managed to stay in contact even if minimal :)
im feeling the reading at the moment! have a little list of books lining up that id like to read! am on dan brown 'angels and demons' atm - it has taken a rather silence of the lambsish turn (which isnt really my style but hey i wana get it finished now im this far) and then i wana get philip pullman read (dark materials) then have: 2 more dan browns, the book about a boy with autism 'the curious incident...' (just hope it doesnt make autism seem all bad like a ch4 prog i watched a while ago), lots of terry pratchetts, hg wells war of the worlds and then me and jim found a new author the other day who writes sci fi fantasies called 'jasper fforde' the book we got is called 'the ayre affair' - jane eyre gets kidnapped from time and the main character 'thursday next' has to rescue her. has anyone read any of jasper ffordes? im a sucker for the overall fantasy genre and the original jane eyre is like one of my fave books so i thought id give it a go :)
anywhoo, amongst my emo-ing (ooh double meaning- my nickname from family used to be emo and to emo on is to moan)life is good....i do need to get another dose of beaur and 24 in soon tho...am having withdrawal symptoms...maybe beaur could make a special appearance formy birthday meal blow up the restaurant and then rescue me from rubble?! hum....that wouldnt do tho as i love my jim too much to run off with the Beaur ;P