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So my son and I have been moved out and in our own apartment for about 3 1/2 weeks now. I have signed travis's divorced papers, so we are just waiting for it to be final. I am now 5 1/2 months pregnant, and feel ok. Chase (who is almost 4) doesn't really realize what is going on. I have had some temperment problems with him recently, but nothing to bad. This divorce is just really hard on me, I keep telling people, its just because i am pregnant, but I don't know how much of that I believe. How am I supposed to act after almost 4 years of marriage, your husband tells you he isn't happy and wants a divorce. I have tried to be a trooper, so we can remain friends, expecially for the kids. but this is just killing me inside.
Just the thought of him possibly being with someone else, literally makes me sick.. Is it normal to feel like that, because thats the main part I keep dwelling on no matter how hard I try to not think about it.
I am at home pregnant, and raising our 3 year old, while god only knows what he could be doing. I hurts me like hell knowing that he could be with someone else, and I have no one.
Maybe I am just pyscho, crazy, whatever. Its just hard because I haven't had anyone to talk to, expecially not anyone my age who has gone through this. I'm 24 BTW. (although I know there are people out there).
The only person I have confided in besides my mom, is an online friend I met years ago on the living dead dolls board, and he lives in the phillipines.
I just need people to tell me I will be ok. Because right now, I don't feel like I will be. I feel like I will never get over this, and will be miserable forever.
I just need encouragement.
anyone have any advise. ( I could really use IT)
mrsdeviant@hotmail.com
Just the thought of him possibly being with someone else, literally makes me sick.. Is it normal to feel like that, because thats the main part I keep dwelling on no matter how hard I try to not think about it.
I am at home pregnant, and raising our 3 year old, while god only knows what he could be doing. I hurts me like hell knowing that he could be with someone else, and I have no one.
Maybe I am just pyscho, crazy, whatever. Its just hard because I haven't had anyone to talk to, expecially not anyone my age who has gone through this. I'm 24 BTW. (although I know there are people out there).
The only person I have confided in besides my mom, is an online friend I met years ago on the living dead dolls board, and he lives in the phillipines.
I just need people to tell me I will be ok. Because right now, I don't feel like I will be. I feel like I will never get over this, and will be miserable forever.
I just need encouragement.
anyone have any advise. ( I could really use IT)
mrsdeviant@hotmail.com