Farewell

[mrsdcontent]

I'm gonna miss LJ a fuckload - it's been over 5 and a half years!
But it's become really unhealthy for me, to be fair it started that way too.
I'll miss reading everyones entries but I hope people realise it doesn't mean I don't care.
So to anyone who has noticed - bye bye :).

Comments

[endraia]

It's extremely hard to move on when people around you are not. I still find it hard seeing people who are struggling, it puts me in a very weird place that is hard to escape from. My friends think I should keep away from people who haven't recovered and maybe they are right. I don't find Lj as triggering as I've no real evidence, but seeing people irl with fresh scars, low weights and who are in a state really triggers me. I would say if you are finding this place hard then keep away. You don't want to lose friends but there has to come a time when you have to ignore certain aspects of your friends lives in order to keep yourself safe. I know that being around people in distress triggers me or, if it doesn't it makes me feel incredibly guilty. I am jealous in a really unhealthy way of people still destroying themselves on a daily basis. I haven't been doing too well lately and this on top of stress and my own feelings has a lot to do with a few people I spent some time with in Edinburgh. You are doing so well in trying to get better, just try and surround yourself with healthy people and ask for their help when you need it.

Xx

[mrsdcontent]

Thank you :).
My family tell me to keep away from people who aren't recovered too, especially because two of my closest friends from Main House died and they saw what a mess it made me/felt scared that I'd be next.
I am jealous too, I wonder if it's a feeling I'll always have because it's been so ingrained in my identity.
Think I've made my mind up. Now gotta stop sneaking on here!x