My fucked up life.
hello everyone;
Well as you may or may not know I fell of the world this time becuase I'm in jonesboro AR to Launch a new site. Well since getting here I have had to be extra good and it got me thiking about a few things.....
1) why is it that one of my co workers can miss a couple of days of work cus he was to drunk/hungover to come to work, and half the time when he is here he is still a little tipsy or smells like booze? Yet his stay her is being extended and is flying strait from here to another site launch?
2) How is it that we were not suposed to get ito ompromising situations yet, i saw a rep drunk out of his skull going into his room whith one of the floor reps and when i knock to try and preventa bad situation he answered the door but would not remove the chain...then I see him leaving the hotel tonight with the same rep....Yet he is sill being set to another site launch?
3) How is it that I learn that my father has been diagnosed with kidney cancer and when people ask me why i seem depressed at times, all I get is a kinda hollow sounding "I'm sorry to her that" kinda sentement, and then they move on with whith there lives? Maybe it is just all empathy seems fake after ths job.
4) Why is it that I'm so affraid of being rejected that I can't tell some one the way that I feel about them? Or is it really the rejetion feactor in this case or does it have to do with the whole beeing good while I'm down here and the one of us being directly under the other, and not wanting to cause problems for either one of us?
5) Why do i long so much for even the most basic physicl contact with people yet never seem to get it while everyone else around me does?
Maybe I'm just crazy...maybe the couple of beer hit me harder than I though......Well now it is time to avoid my fridge of booze, and cry myself to sleep while trying to avoid thoughts of shuffling myself off this mortal coil.
Well as you may or may not know I fell of the world this time becuase I'm in jonesboro AR to Launch a new site. Well since getting here I have had to be extra good and it got me thiking about a few things.....
1) why is it that one of my co workers can miss a couple of days of work cus he was to drunk/hungover to come to work, and half the time when he is here he is still a little tipsy or smells like booze? Yet his stay her is being extended and is flying strait from here to another site launch?
2) How is it that we were not suposed to get ito ompromising situations yet, i saw a rep drunk out of his skull going into his room whith one of the floor reps and when i knock to try and preventa bad situation he answered the door but would not remove the chain...then I see him leaving the hotel tonight with the same rep....Yet he is sill being set to another site launch?
3) How is it that I learn that my father has been diagnosed with kidney cancer and when people ask me why i seem depressed at times, all I get is a kinda hollow sounding "I'm sorry to her that" kinda sentement, and then they move on with whith there lives? Maybe it is just all empathy seems fake after ths job.
4) Why is it that I'm so affraid of being rejected that I can't tell some one the way that I feel about them? Or is it really the rejetion feactor in this case or does it have to do with the whole beeing good while I'm down here and the one of us being directly under the other, and not wanting to cause problems for either one of us?
5) Why do i long so much for even the most basic physicl contact with people yet never seem to get it while everyone else around me does?
Maybe I'm just crazy...maybe the couple of beer hit me harder than I though......Well now it is time to avoid my fridge of booze, and cry myself to sleep while trying to avoid thoughts of shuffling myself off this mortal coil.