it's the time of the year~
EDIT :: first of all,
HAPPY ONEW YEAR! >w<
2009 was a la la la year~ IDK how to properly describe it but seriously i had more sad moments & it really had a greater impact in me -- some people left & some changed & it wasn't for the good yo, stupid insults & more stupid cat fights, leaving hsj fandom because dot dot dot, wanting to be back at someone b-b-but .. IDK if the wounds and scars that were left in me are totally healed. Most of the time, I'm trying to show the whole world that I'm really okay, that I've moved on or everything's nothing. I seriously don't know how to handle negative feelings, I end up lying at others & making a fool out of myself.
On a positive side, I can honestly say that I didn't had any regrets and I'm now happy with where and who I am. I feel more relaxed and everything's more peaceful?! Lol. I'm starting to live a new life .. I didn't even wait for new year, lmao. I just hope that this coming new year, I'll improve as a person especially in handling things & in my studies -- haha, i really need that! A-a-and the world would be a better place for you and for me .. wtfx?! O.O stfx me!
TO PRKR :: sorry for not interacting that much w/ you guys, i don't even text or join your bla blas in plurk or planned activities but I am really happy that you let me join you group. I really had an unforgettable birthday because of that! XD I'm sorry also for leaving the fandom because errr~ but thank you very much because you still treat me as your friend .. ILYALL SERIOUSLY♥
TO THE NAME I REALLY LOVED :: Thank you for everything & Good luck on your work! :)
Memories scratch at my heart and it really hurts
so now I'll mend it with the approaching farewell
The promise that I made to never let go of you,
to never give you up, I know it's now a lie
even though it's hard, for the last time
I'd want to hug you, even if it was just in my dreams~♫
HAPPY ONEW YEAR! >w<
2009 was a la la la year~ IDK how to properly describe it but seriously i had more sad moments & it really had a greater impact in me -- some people left & some changed & it wasn't for the good yo, stupid insults & more stupid cat fights, leaving hsj fandom because dot dot dot, wanting to be back at someone b-b-but .. IDK if the wounds and scars that were left in me are totally healed. Most of the time, I'm trying to show the whole world that I'm really okay, that I've moved on or everything's nothing. I seriously don't know how to handle negative feelings, I end up lying at others & making a fool out of myself.
On a positive side, I can honestly say that I didn't had any regrets and I'm now happy with where and who I am. I feel more relaxed and everything's more peaceful?! Lol. I'm starting to live a new life .. I didn't even wait for new year, lmao. I just hope that this coming new year, I'll improve as a person especially in handling things & in my studies -- haha, i really need that! A-a-and the world would be a better place for you and for me .. wtfx?! O.O stfx me!
TO PRKR :: sorry for not interacting that much w/ you guys, i don't even text or join your bla blas in plurk or planned activities but I am really happy that you let me join you group. I really had an unforgettable birthday because of that! XD I'm sorry also for leaving the fandom because errr~ but thank you very much because you still treat me as your friend .. ILYALL SERIOUSLY♥
TO THE NAME I REALLY LOVED :: Thank you for everything & Good luck on your work! :)
Memories scratch at my heart and it really hurts
so now I'll mend it with the approaching farewell
The promise that I made to never let go of you,
to never give you up, I know it's now a lie
even though it's hard, for the last time
I'd want to hug you, even if it was just in my dreams~♫