Work
So I've been having a really hard time getting motivated at work. A lot of it is because my boss is a complete jerk. I don't like him, don't trust him and feel completely undervalued. My only peer also feels this way about him, and our daily conversations and rants about him squash any possibility of motivation I had a chance of having.
Yesterday came the news I had been assuming (and almost hoping) would come. Well, sort of.
Instead of the generous severance package I had assumed I was getting, he gave me options. While a severance package is tough to take (the low unemployment pay, the uncertainty of getting another job, etc), the reality of being able to walk away from this job, the stress and my boss was refreshing to think about.
But, in typical pain-in-the-ass fashion that this job has taken on, I've been given "choices".
Option 1: Move to Chicago where my position is being moved to. This is not really an option and I'm certain was given as a courtesy only--if I actually took them up on it, they'd figure a way out of the offer. Nor do I have any interest in uprouting my family to a city with high costs of living and colder temperatures than NY.
Option 2: Post to another postion within the company. Also an illusion of an offer, considering there are no other remote positions available and any other position would also require a move to Chicago.
Option 3: Step down to a Field Manager position (a level below my current role) at my current salary. While this is probably the most reasonable offer, it will be a constant reminder of the backwards direction my career has taken.
Option 4: Take a severance package, 12 weeks pay, and leave the company. I would be eligible for unemployment, and it was what I was originally assuming would happen.
But, in a way only my boss can, he has taken something that I would have graciously accepted, and made it painful and humiliating. I will probably have to accept the offer to stay on, because with a family, a home and the financial commitments we have, I cannot simply pass up the offer to remain at my salary for another year (probably more).
There is, of course, the motivating factor. How long do I stay? How do I use the time here? Here's what I'm thinking. Take every online course imaginable (the company has a large online library of courses available). Take advantage of the tuition reimbursement benefit (something I've avoided but really need to do). Focus on paying off bills, getting on track and getting the hell out of here, on my terms, with my head held high. Who knows....maybe the lower position will bring me some peace of mind and less stress than I've been dealing with. Maybe I can eat better, exercise and feel better overall.
Only time will tell........
Yesterday came the news I had been assuming (and almost hoping) would come. Well, sort of.
Instead of the generous severance package I had assumed I was getting, he gave me options. While a severance package is tough to take (the low unemployment pay, the uncertainty of getting another job, etc), the reality of being able to walk away from this job, the stress and my boss was refreshing to think about.
But, in typical pain-in-the-ass fashion that this job has taken on, I've been given "choices".
Option 1: Move to Chicago where my position is being moved to. This is not really an option and I'm certain was given as a courtesy only--if I actually took them up on it, they'd figure a way out of the offer. Nor do I have any interest in uprouting my family to a city with high costs of living and colder temperatures than NY.
Option 2: Post to another postion within the company. Also an illusion of an offer, considering there are no other remote positions available and any other position would also require a move to Chicago.
Option 3: Step down to a Field Manager position (a level below my current role) at my current salary. While this is probably the most reasonable offer, it will be a constant reminder of the backwards direction my career has taken.
Option 4: Take a severance package, 12 weeks pay, and leave the company. I would be eligible for unemployment, and it was what I was originally assuming would happen.
But, in a way only my boss can, he has taken something that I would have graciously accepted, and made it painful and humiliating. I will probably have to accept the offer to stay on, because with a family, a home and the financial commitments we have, I cannot simply pass up the offer to remain at my salary for another year (probably more).
There is, of course, the motivating factor. How long do I stay? How do I use the time here? Here's what I'm thinking. Take every online course imaginable (the company has a large online library of courses available). Take advantage of the tuition reimbursement benefit (something I've avoided but really need to do). Focus on paying off bills, getting on track and getting the hell out of here, on my terms, with my head held high. Who knows....maybe the lower position will bring me some peace of mind and less stress than I've been dealing with. Maybe I can eat better, exercise and feel better overall.
Only time will tell........