what to do what to do . . .
Ah so by september I'll have all my prerequisites, so I can start taking courses full time. It just feels like the world is resting on my already tense shoulders. Basically when I start I'm locked down to this plan for the next three or four years. And I can't have babies until after that. I'll have to work for a little bit to start paying off the massive loans I'll have acumulated and wait to have my babies. I just wish I could do everything faster and sooner. BAH!! And once I'm done school and I have a job then what . . . Everything just feels so endless, no light at the end of my tunnel, it just stretches on foever.