shit for crap.
hullo.i have been thinking. should i stay in band, or give that up and go for the guitar with everything? i feel that im very bad about the oboe. im also under stress with being put at shitty fourth chair and i think im better than that, but noone else exept my mother thinks so, and shes my mom.she has to. i just got done eating dinner and it was weird as crap. i hate having dinners with more than one person. well most of it is that is was my family. i mean i like them, but i dunno i cant explain it. and they prayed. i dont believe in god so that was kinda weird too. but back to what i was talking about. so i feel crappy at oboe. and then i have to try out for districts. and i have to pay five bucks for shit i dont care about and really dont wanna do in the first place. i think i might quit band, seriously. but i do like music and its fun, so what would be good is to stay in the jazz band. and of course ill do colorguard cuz one, i have made quite a commitment to that. and i cant let people i made promises to down. i dont want to let them down either cuz i want to do the things i said i would do. so keep guard, and jazz but quit the actual class. and another thing is, if i try to do both oboe and guitar, ill be half-assing both of them and id rather have a full commitment. yea, so there it is. ok well now that i dont really wanna be in band anymore, what the hell am i gonnna do with myself, if the guitar doesnt make me any money, you know? im confident that with Camila as a good influence and my singing voice i may be able to make it in the business, if i ever get in a band, but seriously that might not work out. i like writing, so what could i do it that field. i ve been considering journalism for some time so maybe when i get out of the band thing i can take that class. and if possible i can just take math 6th period, and journalism 5th. that may work but i dunno if classes are available. wow. i type alot. ok so i just thought that all out onn the computer. yea so now if it loaded i wanna watch schfifty five. not loaded yet. stupid thing. oh yea. and i found a guitar on a magazine for 399, and it was rated a #1 guitar, with a very good review. also i found an amp for 169. good stuff. i shall start saving ASAP. yay. go me. i need a job really bad. that would make getting a guitar soooo much easier. then i could get the one i really like for 900.