Happy Birthday dear Keenan, Happy Birthday to you!
Before I get cranky, Happy Birthday Zeller. I hope you drink lots tonight. Less than a month before my eighteenth. Whoo hoo.
I feel it now. The slow and sinking feeling.
Stay amongst the seaweed
Stay amongst the seaweed
The sun is so bright without you
Theres no point for swimming to the surface
The beams of light shall burn
For it has been so long
Since they touched your subtle skin
Stay amongst the seabed
Stay amongst the seabed
This is your belonging
The dark, the quiet
The everlasting sadness
This is where you belong
Well.. Merry Christmas.
Its such a joyous occasion. What a wonderful holiday to bring this year to an end. As we slowly approach that dreaded day, I would like to name all the things I am thankful for.
-I am thankful for god taking away my uncle, now I dont have a bad influence to look up to
-I am thankful for god to give me the gift of guilt. Thanks, no really. If sleeping for days at a time and wanting to cut yourself up is what it takes for me to understand how much I hurt, then so be it.
-I thank god for hospitals, that are closed at 11 pm when someone is unconsious in the arms of her bf at 2am, bleeding all over the doorstep.
-I am not thankful for the nurse who saw me and let me in.
-I am thankful for god letting me let my friends down. And the realization that the way they feel about me will never change. Unless I break up with Andrew, which Im not sure will even change anything.
-I am thankful for my mom. Who took me out to dinner at Tony Romas, and got the only present sitting for me under the tree. Its a jacket. I got to pick it out.
-I am thankful for god moving my adopted family so far away from me. At a time that I miss them most.
-I am thankful for God blessing Emily (and me.. i guess) with a livejournal, so I can try to keep up with my sisters life.
-I am thankful for god moving Kyle Andrea Rick Josh Dustin Jordan and Crystal so far away. Thanks, asshole. I really could have used them.
-I am thankful for God sending away Phil (Nova Scotia) Lauren (Manitoba) and Ivan (BC) away for christmas. They are close friends, and I wish I could talk to them at a time I need them most.
I think thats long enough
Im almost ready for the season.
But I have one last delivery to make.
I feel it now. The slow and sinking feeling.
Stay amongst the seaweed
Stay amongst the seaweed
The sun is so bright without you
Theres no point for swimming to the surface
The beams of light shall burn
For it has been so long
Since they touched your subtle skin
Stay amongst the seabed
Stay amongst the seabed
This is your belonging
The dark, the quiet
The everlasting sadness
This is where you belong
Well.. Merry Christmas.
Its such a joyous occasion. What a wonderful holiday to bring this year to an end. As we slowly approach that dreaded day, I would like to name all the things I am thankful for.
-I am thankful for god taking away my uncle, now I dont have a bad influence to look up to
-I am thankful for god to give me the gift of guilt. Thanks, no really. If sleeping for days at a time and wanting to cut yourself up is what it takes for me to understand how much I hurt, then so be it.
-I thank god for hospitals, that are closed at 11 pm when someone is unconsious in the arms of her bf at 2am, bleeding all over the doorstep.
-I am not thankful for the nurse who saw me and let me in.
-I am thankful for god letting me let my friends down. And the realization that the way they feel about me will never change. Unless I break up with Andrew, which Im not sure will even change anything.
-I am thankful for my mom. Who took me out to dinner at Tony Romas, and got the only present sitting for me under the tree. Its a jacket. I got to pick it out.
-I am thankful for god moving my adopted family so far away from me. At a time that I miss them most.
-I am thankful for God blessing Emily (and me.. i guess) with a livejournal, so I can try to keep up with my sisters life.
-I am thankful for god moving Kyle Andrea Rick Josh Dustin Jordan and Crystal so far away. Thanks, asshole. I really could have used them.
-I am thankful for God sending away Phil (Nova Scotia) Lauren (Manitoba) and Ivan (BC) away for christmas. They are close friends, and I wish I could talk to them at a time I need them most.
I think thats long enough
Im almost ready for the season.
But I have one last delivery to make.