Life update.
So I've been meaning to get back on here for months and months and sometimes I feel like I've run out of people to talk to so here I am.
1) I have a wonderful, wonderful boyfriend. I can't even begin to explain what he does for me. I'm not even talking about love or blah blah blah. Just simply the fact that he's there for me. He keeps me sane. He distracts me from everything crumbling around me. Without him, I'd be stuck in this apartment being mopey and sad all the time. He found me at the perfect time.
2) School. Ugh. I want to be good in school again. i want to have a drive to get GOOD grades. Not just grades. I want to have interests that I HAVE to learn about right now. I want to want to research grad schools and certification tests.
3) I want this court thing to be settled and for the money to be in my lap and her to be in jail. What I went through was horrible, horrible and I'm tired of reliving it all the time and getting so angry at her and at her fucking lawyer. They want to talk to me. They want to talk to me... I'm pretty sure they're not ready for what I have to say. I want to tell her how much it hurts me every day. I want to tell her that I hate her for making an awful decision that I had the intelligence not to make. I want to tell her I know she's still drinking and being stupid. Ugh. I'd definitely start screaming if I ever got her alone.
4) I have a wonderful life and I need to learn to live it up to what it can be.
1) I have a wonderful, wonderful boyfriend. I can't even begin to explain what he does for me. I'm not even talking about love or blah blah blah. Just simply the fact that he's there for me. He keeps me sane. He distracts me from everything crumbling around me. Without him, I'd be stuck in this apartment being mopey and sad all the time. He found me at the perfect time.
2) School. Ugh. I want to be good in school again. i want to have a drive to get GOOD grades. Not just grades. I want to have interests that I HAVE to learn about right now. I want to want to research grad schools and certification tests.
3) I want this court thing to be settled and for the money to be in my lap and her to be in jail. What I went through was horrible, horrible and I'm tired of reliving it all the time and getting so angry at her and at her fucking lawyer. They want to talk to me. They want to talk to me... I'm pretty sure they're not ready for what I have to say. I want to tell her how much it hurts me every day. I want to tell her that I hate her for making an awful decision that I had the intelligence not to make. I want to tell her I know she's still drinking and being stupid. Ugh. I'd definitely start screaming if I ever got her alone.
4) I have a wonderful life and I need to learn to live it up to what it can be.