My job
Each year the work I do gets greater and greater, and more and more time consuming/life-consuming.
Greater expectations from others, mostly myself.
Reputations to uphold.
State pressure to become 'model' of inclusion leads me to strive for perfection, continued growth, and constant internal dialogues about how I can and should improve upon what we have going in our room.
This year I have gone as far and to email the director of Special Education in our district several times about things that we should be doing as a district in the vein of greater systems change and advancing the field. No response. Ever. I have continued to push and push myself, yet people making the decisions do nothing to change. Status Quo. No progress. No growth. Just protection against lawsuits. That's all they care about.
I think I have about 1-2 years max. left in me before I either 1. Move up or out. OR 2. Stop working altogether for awhile and do something crazy.
Its like being in a perpetual group project with all non-working, non-caring, non-progressive POS. Except these ones make about twice the money I make.
I am getting more and more bitter, and I don't like that.