god damn it.

[mrs_jo_miller]

I ditched school on Friday. What a STUPID, STUPID fucking thing to do...on Monday, I had a little mini-conference with Dr. Brown and Mr. Dover (the assistant principal) about my attendance and grades. I'm pretty sure I can bring up my grade in Economics quick, but it's the fucking P.E. I'm worried about right now. I can't run, but how else am I gonna bring up those grades to at least a low C before the non-grad lists come out??! I might have to run...the thing that fucking pisses me off is that Ms. D doesn't even give me other options. Mr. Lynch was really strict too, but at least when I did bring in my doctor's note he let me walk fucking SIXTEEN laps around the track so I could pass with a D. I dunno, I might have to talk to Dr. Martinez (the principal) about this....I only have SEVEN school days left to try to bring up those P.E. grades! Fuck, I really hate school. I really do. All it is a bunch of stress...I'm definitely taking that six-month break after graduation. IF....I graduate...oh god. I don't want to disappoint my family and friends. But most of all, I don't want to disappoint myself. I'm seriously getting depressed...I've been having stupid thoughts lately that I don't even want to type in here...but...like I always say: I NEED HELP.

I really have nothing else to say. This worry is consuming me.