"When I get that feelin'..."
We are officially tattooed!!! whooooo!! if you look at that icon you can see a what EssEss, Wido, and I (JayBee) got for a tattoo on our wrist. HORRAYYYY hehe ...i love Kelly and Jesus...soo um yeah it fit. It was Friday November 19th around 11:45 when i started to get tattoooedddd for the first time. IT HURT....I'm not gunna lie hehehehe. i'm so glad we all decided to do it. it makes me so happy that we got it done. i also got a fairy on my back....like where britney got hers. right in between the two back dimples hehehe its so cute. i havent named her yet. hmm i'm still thinking. any suggestions???....
so i'm in the KE and Penna isnt here. thank God. That thursday before we got it done starch and i were talking about what we wanted and all that. and penna was like yeah i dont want you going to any tattoo sites and i flipped out b/c we werent. and i'm like umm do you see any tattoos on this screen mrs.penna? no! and shes like well i dont want you to. so she tells me to get out some work and i never have work and i'm like i dont have any so she said leave and i'm liek fine this is shit i'm gettin a tattoo i dont fucking care what any fuckin person has to say about it.. she was so wrong to fuckin interfere...we werent even talking to her. and like the thing is we NEVER have work to do. and that pissed me off that she told me that i had to leave. grrr im so mad at her. thank gooooooddddd shes not here today.
okkkayyy..so heres the BIGGEST drama in my life. well. i call matt up like a few days ago and he's liek i'm so pissed. and i got all scared and he's like soooo.. my mom said that john said that jakey (their tiny little dog) went into my room and started chewing on a note that you wrote me...my heart sank, cuz well.. thats not cool. then he said that john just happen to open the drawer that all the other notes were in and read them. okay, these notes talked about personal things...i'm talkin personal. and now shes like you cant be together alone we dont trust you and she treats me like i dont exsist...thats wrong. i know its a big deal and she think i'm curropting her little boy but he has a say in these things as well.. its not like i f'ing raped him. and then she read the note that it said i wanted to marry him when schools over and all that...okay. so what? I love him, and he makes me happy. he feels the same way. she doesnt even ask him how he feels about me. she just freaks out. why cant she just be a real parent and suck it up, sit us BOTH f'ing down and talk to us about it instead of being this mean mean person. its just not fair. i could be out cheating on him... its funny how people forgive girls that cheat on their son or brother...yet they hate or even f'ing condemn the ones who are in love with him. it really pisses me off. i told my mom about it and of course she understands that shes upset.. i mean i too. but the way shes acting is so silly. when my mom found out that i had sex for the first time, she sat me down and talked to me about it. and i told her that the only reason i didnt tell her is b/c she tells other people everything about me and it kills me to know my buisness is out on the town.. so no, i'm not guna tell her everything. but anyway, i just wish she would have handled it better... i mean she knows that her two daughters are doing things she might not like...when people grow up and find the person they love...things happen. and i dont regret anything and i'm not sorry for anything i've done. i'm just sorry that i'm the bigger person in this whole thing. matt's telling me that we need to talk to her. but i KNOW thats not going to help anything shes just guna ask questions thats guna get us more in trouble. i cant take this. his mom and i were just starting to be decent to each other. i even hugged her. this just bothers me.. at least now i have something to compare it to for when i have kids. i'm deff going to take my moms approach.. id rather talk to a child i love and let them know that im there and even if they dont need me i'll be waiting.. i refuse to hate my son or daughter just b/c they had sex earlier than i wanted them to. it just doesnt happen that way. at least not in my heart. so i wanted to thank her for making me stronger and smarter, and for knowing what not to do. cuz how i feel now is not how anyone should ever have to feel.. i feel like i should be sorry for being in love with him. but i'm not.. and if i'm wrong for that....then may God stike me with a lightning bolt..or may i fall dead right now.
so i'm in the KE and Penna isnt here. thank God. That thursday before we got it done starch and i were talking about what we wanted and all that. and penna was like yeah i dont want you going to any tattoo sites and i flipped out b/c we werent. and i'm like umm do you see any tattoos on this screen mrs.penna? no! and shes like well i dont want you to. so she tells me to get out some work and i never have work and i'm like i dont have any so she said leave and i'm liek fine this is shit i'm gettin a tattoo i dont fucking care what any fuckin person has to say about it.. she was so wrong to fuckin interfere...we werent even talking to her. and like the thing is we NEVER have work to do. and that pissed me off that she told me that i had to leave. grrr im so mad at her. thank gooooooddddd shes not here today.
okkkayyy..so heres the BIGGEST drama in my life. well. i call matt up like a few days ago and he's liek i'm so pissed. and i got all scared and he's like soooo.. my mom said that john said that jakey (their tiny little dog) went into my room and started chewing on a note that you wrote me...my heart sank, cuz well.. thats not cool. then he said that john just happen to open the drawer that all the other notes were in and read them. okay, these notes talked about personal things...i'm talkin personal. and now shes like you cant be together alone we dont trust you and she treats me like i dont exsist...thats wrong. i know its a big deal and she think i'm curropting her little boy but he has a say in these things as well.. its not like i f'ing raped him. and then she read the note that it said i wanted to marry him when schools over and all that...okay. so what? I love him, and he makes me happy. he feels the same way. she doesnt even ask him how he feels about me. she just freaks out. why cant she just be a real parent and suck it up, sit us BOTH f'ing down and talk to us about it instead of being this mean mean person. its just not fair. i could be out cheating on him... its funny how people forgive girls that cheat on their son or brother...yet they hate or even f'ing condemn the ones who are in love with him. it really pisses me off. i told my mom about it and of course she understands that shes upset.. i mean i too. but the way shes acting is so silly. when my mom found out that i had sex for the first time, she sat me down and talked to me about it. and i told her that the only reason i didnt tell her is b/c she tells other people everything about me and it kills me to know my buisness is out on the town.. so no, i'm not guna tell her everything. but anyway, i just wish she would have handled it better... i mean she knows that her two daughters are doing things she might not like...when people grow up and find the person they love...things happen. and i dont regret anything and i'm not sorry for anything i've done. i'm just sorry that i'm the bigger person in this whole thing. matt's telling me that we need to talk to her. but i KNOW thats not going to help anything shes just guna ask questions thats guna get us more in trouble. i cant take this. his mom and i were just starting to be decent to each other. i even hugged her. this just bothers me.. at least now i have something to compare it to for when i have kids. i'm deff going to take my moms approach.. id rather talk to a child i love and let them know that im there and even if they dont need me i'll be waiting.. i refuse to hate my son or daughter just b/c they had sex earlier than i wanted them to. it just doesnt happen that way. at least not in my heart. so i wanted to thank her for making me stronger and smarter, and for knowing what not to do. cuz how i feel now is not how anyone should ever have to feel.. i feel like i should be sorry for being in love with him. but i'm not.. and if i'm wrong for that....then may God stike me with a lightning bolt..or may i fall dead right now.