If i could HOLD ON thru the tears and the laughter...
she and i arent friends. him and i are still in love...
John L. Imed me this morning asking about us (matt and i) i give john alot of credit. he cares about his friends alot. and he has the balls to ask anything he feels needs to be answered. i wish everyone just asked instead of talking about it. but yea. so i guess everything is alright with matt and i. although i'm scared of what his mom thinks of me. i'm not the horrible person beth makes me out to me. and if i were, she wouldnt have wanted to be my friend in the first place. but then again, she befriends evil beings every now and then. but what ever.
all i have to say about the cheering thing is.. there isnt an GC squad right now and i WONT cheer with SB. Deacon Tom and i are very close. ive went to that church pretty much my whole life. he knows my family. so dont tell me what to do. i dont care if you know the rules or not, if he says i can cheer for kings. then i'm going to. i know he'll let me. and Mrs.Connelly said that its alright as long as i get a realese from my church. and i know i'll get it. -i'm very thankful that i no longer have you in my life. you made some bad asumptions. and i got sick of being called things i am not. so if you leave, dont come back. thanks.
i went over to sara's house yesterday and made cookies with her eve and TIMMMMM haha.. he reminds me of a grown up leprachaun. hes really nice and i'm soo happy for sara. they'll make it all the way, i can see their children already hehe. so gald you came home for the weekend! i miss you!! SOOO MUCH. OMG...jerry (eve and saras dad) said that i would be making 9.50 or something at work.. i almost peed my pants. but i dont think i am. not yet at least. lol that was crazy. i got so excited but i reallly doubt it. although it would help alot with my car and the apartment with amanda.
i love you sara.
ahh i dont feel good.
last night i also went to see the "grudge" with dudie and miranda .. oh lord it was so scary.. and since we were like 15 mins late, we had to sit in like the SECOND row. it was sooo freakin scaarrryyy!! AHHH i screamed so loud like all the time. people were laughing and i was like.. um why are they laughing. yeah. i'm so scared. even now during the day. that girl freakin looked like the girl from the ring. eve, tim and sara went, i asked them to. but we didnt sit by them. that made my heart hurt. i miss them all.. even eve. i dont see her alot, and she lives next door. next spring or what ever shes moving to tennesse for college.. thats so sad. im guna miss matt when i go to college. sure i mean for the first two years i'm going to stay here with amanda, (her and i are getting an apartment..i hope, i think that would be so much fun) then im still not sure. i wanna go to cortland..haha ohh boy, everyones saying that its wicked big party school.. hells yeah hahaha. but i gota be good. aw nuts :p haha. im crazy. sometimes i wish i wasnt but i am.. cant help it. oh well.
hmm i think i'm guna go finish "The Lovely Bones".. i have like 100 more pages.
<3you
deuceup.AtowNDoWn.
John L. Imed me this morning asking about us (matt and i) i give john alot of credit. he cares about his friends alot. and he has the balls to ask anything he feels needs to be answered. i wish everyone just asked instead of talking about it. but yea. so i guess everything is alright with matt and i. although i'm scared of what his mom thinks of me. i'm not the horrible person beth makes me out to me. and if i were, she wouldnt have wanted to be my friend in the first place. but then again, she befriends evil beings every now and then. but what ever.
all i have to say about the cheering thing is.. there isnt an GC squad right now and i WONT cheer with SB. Deacon Tom and i are very close. ive went to that church pretty much my whole life. he knows my family. so dont tell me what to do. i dont care if you know the rules or not, if he says i can cheer for kings. then i'm going to. i know he'll let me. and Mrs.Connelly said that its alright as long as i get a realese from my church. and i know i'll get it. -i'm very thankful that i no longer have you in my life. you made some bad asumptions. and i got sick of being called things i am not. so if you leave, dont come back. thanks.
i went over to sara's house yesterday and made cookies with her eve and TIMMMMM haha.. he reminds me of a grown up leprachaun. hes really nice and i'm soo happy for sara. they'll make it all the way, i can see their children already hehe. so gald you came home for the weekend! i miss you!! SOOO MUCH. OMG...jerry (eve and saras dad) said that i would be making 9.50 or something at work.. i almost peed my pants. but i dont think i am. not yet at least. lol that was crazy. i got so excited but i reallly doubt it. although it would help alot with my car and the apartment with amanda.
i love you sara.
ahh i dont feel good.
last night i also went to see the "grudge" with dudie and miranda .. oh lord it was so scary.. and since we were like 15 mins late, we had to sit in like the SECOND row. it was sooo freakin scaarrryyy!! AHHH i screamed so loud like all the time. people were laughing and i was like.. um why are they laughing. yeah. i'm so scared. even now during the day. that girl freakin looked like the girl from the ring. eve, tim and sara went, i asked them to. but we didnt sit by them. that made my heart hurt. i miss them all.. even eve. i dont see her alot, and she lives next door. next spring or what ever shes moving to tennesse for college.. thats so sad. im guna miss matt when i go to college. sure i mean for the first two years i'm going to stay here with amanda, (her and i are getting an apartment..i hope, i think that would be so much fun) then im still not sure. i wanna go to cortland..haha ohh boy, everyones saying that its wicked big party school.. hells yeah hahaha. but i gota be good. aw nuts :p haha. im crazy. sometimes i wish i wasnt but i am.. cant help it. oh well.
hmm i think i'm guna go finish "The Lovely Bones".. i have like 100 more pages.
<3you
deuceup.AtowNDoWn.