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Once again, I find myself full of words. Chains of Misery binding my soul evermore to the Wall of the Damned, my eyes gouged out with the Dagger of Sorrow........FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKING LIFE! Im wasting my time here.....and for what? Nothing is worth the HELL i live in every fucking day. My life is pointless........I am DAMNED by everything for what I am. People laugh at me, taunt me, and fuck with my head.....like its all a FUCKING GAME just for their own personal amusement. Well fuck that! Lets see whats happened this evening.....I said something to Liz about me and her hardly ever talking anymore...and she informed me basically she didnt have time for me. Needless to say, that really helped my day right over the fucking gates of Hell in the darkest pit Satan ever assfucked Sadam Hussein in....so now im back to square 1. Im still alone....all alone....in a lonely spiraling motion of decay. Time is slowly eating away at the Flesh...and all I do is smile and let it slowly tear my heart away. More and More, my heart...is replaced by Stone. Cold Stone. All I feel is pain, and I try my best to hide it, and most people cant see it. Some can, but dont care....It doesnt matter really...because it happens over and over....nothing new to me. Im use to being stabbed in the back.....walked on.....Maybe if I wasnt this Fat Fuck that I am, I wouldnt be in this position. Maybe i'll just gut myself and throw the Fat in every fuckers face. Maybe then they'd get the fucking idea. Or maybe its my general attitude towards things......No...I think its because im ugly as Fat Bastard.....cept im American..But ya know theres so much I wanna say, yet I could never put it all into words. Feelings are a terrible thing to have...because they tear away at you, and run you down, and make you feel like your not worth Snail Cum. I feel like such a piece of shit....and some people out there will tell you im right. I miss being happy...I miss being with my girl...and not having a care in the world...I miss the warmth of someone holding you and telling you regardless of WHO you are, that they love you...unconditionally....But long gone, those days are. Now I am is myself....nothing more, nothing less.