Happy Birthday to Me!
So, tis another birthday. 2 decades of living. Mmkay... life... anyday you want to kick and start being fun, would be greatly appreciated.
I keep thinking things are going to fix my situation... Like, oh I can't wait to go away to college because this and this and this will happen... grant it I haven't been away for an entire week yet but still, I think things will magically solve my life. Like I'll wake up one day and not be a fat loser.
I'm just so frusterated at myself. I feel like I've been living my life in this never ending fantasy of quick solutions. I feel so friggin' uncomfortable with who I am that I can't go up to people and talk to them because I'm so afraid of what they'll think of me.
I have to let that go. Like, now! I have to somehow summon some confidence from somewhere inside me. I know it's there somewhere.
So my birthday resolutions: Let it go! If I don't like something, change it! If I can't change it, accept it, move on with my life.
I keep thinking things are going to fix my situation... Like, oh I can't wait to go away to college because this and this and this will happen... grant it I haven't been away for an entire week yet but still, I think things will magically solve my life. Like I'll wake up one day and not be a fat loser.
I'm just so frusterated at myself. I feel like I've been living my life in this never ending fantasy of quick solutions. I feel so friggin' uncomfortable with who I am that I can't go up to people and talk to them because I'm so afraid of what they'll think of me.
I have to let that go. Like, now! I have to somehow summon some confidence from somewhere inside me. I know it's there somewhere.
So my birthday resolutions: Let it go! If I don't like something, change it! If I can't change it, accept it, move on with my life.