This blog is about xanax
So,
August 14, my divorce is finalized. I would say that is decently quick. I filed June 23rd, so I would say that is decently quick, yeah.
It's gonna be so weird. I've been inactively married for 4 years, that is crazy.
My only issue is i have to push back my wedding. We didn't have a definite date, but we had a minor idea of around what days but now it's gotta get pushed back.
Which is cool, I need to plan a reception since I know everyone is not gonna come to a the court wedding and honestly, I really don't want too many people there, just close family and friends.
Well, I am going back to school this fall, for real this time, Cameron is gonna let me use some of his GI Bill since my school isn't gonna be super expensive since I will be in a set program for the MLT, so he said i can either work part time or not work while I am in school, but he figures I want spending money for all my bad habits and such.
Wish list
wish list
So, Cameron has a wishlist for the military of places he would prefer to be sent to, he is at this base since he had a shitload of training for his career field (I am not going to go into too much detail for obvious reasons.) some of it supported by the fact of that one really important building is in walking distance of his dorms helps a lot.
But on his wishlist, he has Japan, Australia and I think Germany, which I am super stoked about all of these except today Cameron was telling me about Guam and how he wants to go to Guam, and I was looking it up and it looks pretty ballin actually.
So, If any of those will be where we live, I'm okay with that. Mostly out of the Unitied States, like if we got stationed in England, that would definitely be straight with me.
The closer I get to be married the more nervous I am, not bad nervous, like not like I'm having second thoughts but nervous like I never thought I'd go down this road again.
But, the best advice I got from someone who has been married twice, "If you're willing to go down one of the most painful things you went through twice for a different person, then you are ready/
A lot of my friends are worried, well not a lot, just Lori, but that is because she had to witness that debaucle the first time, but I think of it this way.
I've had enough long term relationships to know when to jump ship and Cameron and I have an almost abnormally good relationship. Like, people think I am overexagerating but we really have an awesome reasonship, We get it tiffs every now and then, but it's mostly because one of us is pissed at something else, but we have a great relationship, a great MATURE relationship, not like puppydogg love even though sometimes we act like that but we have our bills, our property and we make each choice with each other in mind, it's kind of like, we hang out and plan to hang out forever.
It's bizarre because remarrying only came into my mind one otther time since Mike and that was with Zack but that was a storm that came in and fucked everything up and left but I am really glad we didn't get married because he married some dumb bitch and he got fat and is miserable and kind of has a sense of venom because I am pretty fucking happy.
Oh, and I decided i'm not going to go on xanax, pills have no effect on me, or the wrong effect, I got like a one week sample to see if it worked for me.
Sure, I wasn't anxious, but I took a 5 hour nap every day this week from 6p to 11p on accident and I missed my tattoo appointment with luke because of it.
I was just so exhausted and Cameron couldn't believe that I just kept passing out. Yesterday, when I picked him up, apparently, I was fucking out of it.