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I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't say exactly what is going on, but Im doing something that I hate. It involves a man, and I've always said I would never and could never do this. But Im doing it, I don't know why, I can't stop cause I care. I want it to stop, but I don't want to end it. I want to end it, but I don't want it to stop. I hate this side of me and wish I never knew I could be like this. Why can't I just put a stop to this and go on with my life as I want to lead it....maybe because this is who I am and this is what I want?