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My life sucks! I think I might be starting to get seriously depressed. I can't enjoy anything anymore, nothing seems to go right. Im in love with a guy who is totally jerk in some way, but in the other way he is so sweet, kind, loving and cute. I know I should stop talking to him, stop thinking about him, but I just can't. He's in my mind all the time and that's so exhausting. I know he sleeps with other women, well woman, but why should I care because we are not in a relationship. He sais he wants to with me, he wants me to become his girlfriend eventually, but that he has to deal with some stuff first. I gave him two months so sort out his life and if he hasn't by then then he lost me. He almost cried during one of our talks that he doesn't want to loose me and that he cares for me deeply, but he's afraid of hurting me if he stays the person that he is now. Some part of me sais that this is totally crap, but on the other hand I do care about him so damn much that I don't even care.
Happy f*cking Newyear!
Happy f*cking Newyear!