The usual antisipation
Honestly, everyone says that most long distance relationships don't work. My question is: why is that? Do the people think that because we live 5 hours apart and only see each otherabout every two weeks that we'll somehow loose interest? I suppose that could be a danger if one of you has a short attention span or few moral qualems but that's the opposite of us. Sure, it's really hard and lonely to not be able to see each other for such long periods of time but, that just increases the interest. The old "absence makes the heart grow fonder" cliche actually is true. We think about each other constantly and talk on msn everyday. The fact that he loves me and our moving out plans with friends are all that keep me from losing the little grip on reality that I have. There's alot of bad stuff happening to my family lately and it is really saddening me and making me worry. I don't need that kind of stress but the only way I know how to forget it all is to go into town. I go to Sin or Sanctuary and the music and the dancing works to perge my burdened soul. Caid is my freedom, hope and happiness all rolled into one. I'm already a better person since we starting going out. He works to calm me down and actually kind of makes me the optimist in the relationship. Anyone who knows me will kind of snicker at that idea, and i admit i'm not that optimistic but i have to have hope. Not that he's trying to change me or anything it is just happening organically. I've changed so much over the last two years and I haven't finished yet. I'm hoping to be happy with the person I end up being. As it goes so far, i'm not all that displeased. I'm going to Weight Watchers soon today to see if i whooped that 0.8 of a pounds ass. If i did i'll be officially at my goal weight. SO excited! A little over 20 pounds gone naturally in 8? months. I think I might splerg and get ice cream to celebrate today if i am. I asked Caid to set me an incentive to get to my goal because i kept cheating on my diet and he did. I SO WANT IT! So, fingers crossed for my goal. The twig woman is in the house. I want sweets but, most of all I want Caid. Goddamn the last couple days before we see each other. They're always the longest and the most teasing. When we do see each other after a long break it's kinda like we remember we love each other when we're apart but when i can touch him and see him, i'm reminded again and again of why and to what extent. It's like falling in love all over again. Very tantalizing. Will update after Weight Watchers to tell u the results.