"It wasn't the airplane that killed the beast, it was beauty"- King Kong!
ventation time.
Nate, I need to quit looking our picture because everytime I do I'm reminded of how screwed up this feels. I'm fine without you. But it makes me sad, we both know what we had. We both know it was different, even if it was for a little while. How can two people who can't keep their eyes off each other...how can they be like we are now? How can we be casual? It freaks me out that I'm not bawling my eyes out because we're casual. That's funny that because I'm not upset...that makes me upset lol. At least I know the true meaning of "looking across a crowded room and all we see is each other". And I like that I know how that feels, even if now I feel like our eyes are finally focusing on the people around us. I look at this picture of us during band season...and I want that back. No one made me more comfortable, more happy, and more...full than you did. I sound like Kallie Jackson, and this sucks majorly...but oh well. I hear songs, certain ones and phrases, and I like that I know how that felt. My heart was on the everglow, just like in the Mae song, thank you for making me feel that way. Thank you for cold nights outside of church, thank you for dodgeball, and flour fights. Thank you for Jingle Bell Rock, sarcascim, beatings, band, hand warmers, you being the only guy I'd wear long johns and shorts around, thanks for laying on blankets really close during senior speeches and making me laugh when I cried that Lisa was leaving. Thank for you for this:
_ Nate-- Reggie Bush won it!: Guess wat, I was sitting in class today and I had this overwhelming feeling of just wanting to talk to you. I don't know what about though...
Thank you for late night MSN talks,for being the first boy I told that I loved, thanks for phone calls in the mountains, thanks for missing me, thanks for Friday night 3rd quarters at the football games, thanks for making me so happy, for crazy kids at camp, for liking each other the exact same moment, for sitting on desks together, for messing with kids on stage. Thank you for love.
------------------------------------
I saw Clay Aiken again in concert last night with Lauren, Caitlin, and Vic. It was Caitlin's first concert...I think we have her hooked and i"m more than thrilled. Clay amazes me. He's got SO much talent. I can't even speak of it. It's spiritual.I'm feeling very spiritual tonight. Don't misinterupt my lack of words for the concert...I can't speak on it. There's no words to describe it hahaha. I sound so stupid.
please commentttt<3
Nate, I need to quit looking our picture because everytime I do I'm reminded of how screwed up this feels. I'm fine without you. But it makes me sad, we both know what we had. We both know it was different, even if it was for a little while. How can two people who can't keep their eyes off each other...how can they be like we are now? How can we be casual? It freaks me out that I'm not bawling my eyes out because we're casual. That's funny that because I'm not upset...that makes me upset lol. At least I know the true meaning of "looking across a crowded room and all we see is each other". And I like that I know how that feels, even if now I feel like our eyes are finally focusing on the people around us. I look at this picture of us during band season...and I want that back. No one made me more comfortable, more happy, and more...full than you did. I sound like Kallie Jackson, and this sucks majorly...but oh well. I hear songs, certain ones and phrases, and I like that I know how that felt. My heart was on the everglow, just like in the Mae song, thank you for making me feel that way. Thank you for cold nights outside of church, thank you for dodgeball, and flour fights. Thank you for Jingle Bell Rock, sarcascim, beatings, band, hand warmers, you being the only guy I'd wear long johns and shorts around, thanks for laying on blankets really close during senior speeches and making me laugh when I cried that Lisa was leaving. Thank for you for this:
_ Nate-- Reggie Bush won it!: Guess wat, I was sitting in class today and I had this overwhelming feeling of just wanting to talk to you. I don't know what about though...
Thank you for late night MSN talks,for being the first boy I told that I loved, thanks for phone calls in the mountains, thanks for missing me, thanks for Friday night 3rd quarters at the football games, thanks for making me so happy, for crazy kids at camp, for liking each other the exact same moment, for sitting on desks together, for messing with kids on stage. Thank you for love.
------------------------------------
I saw Clay Aiken again in concert last night with Lauren, Caitlin, and Vic. It was Caitlin's first concert...I think we have her hooked and i"m more than thrilled. Clay amazes me. He's got SO much talent. I can't even speak of it. It's spiritual.I'm feeling very spiritual tonight. Don't misinterupt my lack of words for the concert...I can't speak on it. There's no words to describe it hahaha. I sound so stupid.
please commentttt<3