so lonely..
i dont know. its weird..all of the sudden (today after school) i'm in this depressed mood. its so weird? i'm not depressed i dont think..i just feel gloomy. i feel like i could be doing more with my life..but wat else is there to do? i find myself jealous of the people on the O.C. just because they are having such a great time living there lives and i'm stuck here in texas hating school and being lonely.
i do feel lonely... i dunno its weird i mean cuz i have friends and i can be in a whole room of like 500 people and i'm talking to everyone and making people laugh, and yet i still feel empty, i feel like theres a whole in my heart. i dunno maybe its cuz courtneys gone? maybe ...shes the only person that i can tell EVERyTHING thats on my mind..i mean i tell anne a lot of things but not everything..i've told courtney pretty much everything. i dunno i just feel sad and i dont know why. weird? yes. strange? yes. i feel like i have no one..the one i had is gone.. like 3,000 miles away.
i dont know what it is.. i long to live somewhere else..maybe this hole in my heart will mend...
BUT i do have a GREAT bible verse for people who are currently feeling like me..
"God has said; "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." so i'm not really alone..even tho i feel like it.
i dunno..i just think i need a boyfriend.
i do feel lonely... i dunno its weird i mean cuz i have friends and i can be in a whole room of like 500 people and i'm talking to everyone and making people laugh, and yet i still feel empty, i feel like theres a whole in my heart. i dunno maybe its cuz courtneys gone? maybe ...shes the only person that i can tell EVERyTHING thats on my mind..i mean i tell anne a lot of things but not everything..i've told courtney pretty much everything. i dunno i just feel sad and i dont know why. weird? yes. strange? yes. i feel like i have no one..the one i had is gone.. like 3,000 miles away.
i dont know what it is.. i long to live somewhere else..maybe this hole in my heart will mend...
BUT i do have a GREAT bible verse for people who are currently feeling like me..
"God has said; "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." so i'm not really alone..even tho i feel like it.
i dunno..i just think i need a boyfriend.