christ I am drunk... Bear with me.
So. this new girl is nice and I stop by her house to say hello tonight.....
Only to find out that her best friend is someone I am cool with now......
However, I hated him up till about my junior in highschool....
That fucked up my night, so I go to the bar with Justin (you Know the one).
(who by the way just fucked up the TV.)
We end up carousing Sneaky Petes in Montgomery.
As soon as I walk in I see 2 people from highschool.
I tell justin, "Fuck, there are people from my class here.... This sucks."
(My mind is already fucked up with the recent reconnections I have been bombarded with in the past few weeks, and the other people that I have bumped into recently)
Then, I see two more people from my graduating class followed by four more. Justin then asks if we should leave. I say no, I just tell him not to let me drink to much or I will get really fucked up. (yes it has been one of those days) so instead I decide to get a shot. (if this is incoherent, I apologize I am still a little hammered)
I walk to go put a shot on justins tab when I am stop by a gaggle of girls I went to highschool with. I say hello, and tell them I will return after I put a shot on my friends tab........ Then, I return and the fun begins.
I am now talking to a fellow class of 2001 graduates, Ms. Eigel, Ms. Dennis, and Ms. Gille. (I am going to try to be polite and unbiased in my writing of this) We say hellos and somehow I am now speaking solely to Ms. Eigel. We talk of bars and other such things, obviously running in completly different circles and generally agreeing on acceptence. However, due to a bad expereince on short vine, Ms. Eigel is reluctent to return to see the queers on September fifth at Top Cats. That is when I say, 'That in that state of mind, one would not pursue a course of action if one had negative experiences in the past.' (implying that I should not be speaking to her, because her and the other 6 people there were cockmonsters to me for a few years.) She in turn says, that the experience was bad enough not to warrant a second time, but said that in most situations she wouldn't do that. (my question was said: to politly insult her, because I am a bitter asshole, but also made, because I wanted her to fore-go the past, and see the show. (looking back I was being a hypocrite.) So we continue the conversation, it is polite and pleasent.... I am holding back my negativity. So eventually, I make a statement as to why I did not approach the group.... 'I did not make any acknowledgement to your presence because, i do not respect you for who were, and I (for the past) do not want to know who you are today.
The debate begins, and from here forth, I will tell you the outcome.
Ms. Eigel was completly respectful, polite and held herself very well.
Ms. Dennis was pleasent to have around....
Ms. Gille, closed the conversation (or tried to for all of us) by saying.....
"We are done talking, I am who i am today, I am sorry you are.... BITTER and ANGRY.... and we are better people than you are" (I quoted and not paraphrased that because, i think she said it a little more insulting)
I in turn tell her, that her point is invalid because, two of the things she said, she said for me and the other one was a direct insult..... I leave in frustration at her ignorance, drunkeness, and the fact that she had no idea what was going on. (In reality, Ms. Eigel and myself, had a very pleasent conversation and I enjoyed who she was today. i hope that the conversation was also pleasent for her.) In closing I told Ms. Eigel, "It was a pleasure meeting you for the first time."
--The conversation was much more in depth, and I made myself out to be more than an asshole than I really was in writing this. However, I have garnered a respect for some of the people that have wronged me in the past especially Ms. Eigel. For those of you who do not fully know me, I dwell on things a lot. I am a spiteful person... I am easy to forgive, hard to forget. And I learned a lesson from all this...........................................
It came from Ms. Gille, (the one who was being a horrendous bitch the whole time.)
As she was politely insulting a girl she saw at the barealier that week, that she and I used to go to school with, pretty much saying. 'That girl is still wierd, so, I still treat her as a lower.....and no one should be nice to her' (I cannot fully grasp how disrepectful and ignorant this statement was, the point being - Ms. Gille is an open and excepting person unless you fall in a different "class" then her.) Sorry if that does not make sense......
My point is I made fun of that girl in school and made her life hell for a year, and that made me no better a person back then they were.
This wasn;t meant to be a life story or a "after school talk" I wanted to illustrate a funny story, only to realize that I am indeed the true asshole I have always hated in others. And at this point in my life, I need to finally let go.
Ms. Eigel, I wish you the best. Ms. Gille, you still offended me - but fuck it.
ms. Dennis, it was a pleasure seeing you again.
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Only to find out that her best friend is someone I am cool with now......
However, I hated him up till about my junior in highschool....
That fucked up my night, so I go to the bar with Justin (you Know the one).
(who by the way just fucked up the TV.)
We end up carousing Sneaky Petes in Montgomery.
As soon as I walk in I see 2 people from highschool.
I tell justin, "Fuck, there are people from my class here.... This sucks."
(My mind is already fucked up with the recent reconnections I have been bombarded with in the past few weeks, and the other people that I have bumped into recently)
Then, I see two more people from my graduating class followed by four more. Justin then asks if we should leave. I say no, I just tell him not to let me drink to much or I will get really fucked up. (yes it has been one of those days) so instead I decide to get a shot. (if this is incoherent, I apologize I am still a little hammered)
I walk to go put a shot on justins tab when I am stop by a gaggle of girls I went to highschool with. I say hello, and tell them I will return after I put a shot on my friends tab........ Then, I return and the fun begins.
I am now talking to a fellow class of 2001 graduates, Ms. Eigel, Ms. Dennis, and Ms. Gille. (I am going to try to be polite and unbiased in my writing of this) We say hellos and somehow I am now speaking solely to Ms. Eigel. We talk of bars and other such things, obviously running in completly different circles and generally agreeing on acceptence. However, due to a bad expereince on short vine, Ms. Eigel is reluctent to return to see the queers on September fifth at Top Cats. That is when I say, 'That in that state of mind, one would not pursue a course of action if one had negative experiences in the past.' (implying that I should not be speaking to her, because her and the other 6 people there were cockmonsters to me for a few years.) She in turn says, that the experience was bad enough not to warrant a second time, but said that in most situations she wouldn't do that. (my question was said: to politly insult her, because I am a bitter asshole, but also made, because I wanted her to fore-go the past, and see the show. (looking back I was being a hypocrite.) So we continue the conversation, it is polite and pleasent.... I am holding back my negativity. So eventually, I make a statement as to why I did not approach the group.... 'I did not make any acknowledgement to your presence because, i do not respect you for who were, and I (for the past) do not want to know who you are today.
The debate begins, and from here forth, I will tell you the outcome.
Ms. Eigel was completly respectful, polite and held herself very well.
Ms. Dennis was pleasent to have around....
Ms. Gille, closed the conversation (or tried to for all of us) by saying.....
"We are done talking, I am who i am today, I am sorry you are.... BITTER and ANGRY.... and we are better people than you are" (I quoted and not paraphrased that because, i think she said it a little more insulting)
I in turn tell her, that her point is invalid because, two of the things she said, she said for me and the other one was a direct insult..... I leave in frustration at her ignorance, drunkeness, and the fact that she had no idea what was going on. (In reality, Ms. Eigel and myself, had a very pleasent conversation and I enjoyed who she was today. i hope that the conversation was also pleasent for her.) In closing I told Ms. Eigel, "It was a pleasure meeting you for the first time."
--The conversation was much more in depth, and I made myself out to be more than an asshole than I really was in writing this. However, I have garnered a respect for some of the people that have wronged me in the past especially Ms. Eigel. For those of you who do not fully know me, I dwell on things a lot. I am a spiteful person... I am easy to forgive, hard to forget. And I learned a lesson from all this...........................................
It came from Ms. Gille, (the one who was being a horrendous bitch the whole time.)
As she was politely insulting a girl she saw at the barealier that week, that she and I used to go to school with, pretty much saying. 'That girl is still wierd, so, I still treat her as a lower.....and no one should be nice to her' (I cannot fully grasp how disrepectful and ignorant this statement was, the point being - Ms. Gille is an open and excepting person unless you fall in a different "class" then her.) Sorry if that does not make sense......
My point is I made fun of that girl in school and made her life hell for a year, and that made me no better a person back then they were.
This wasn;t meant to be a life story or a "after school talk" I wanted to illustrate a funny story, only to realize that I am indeed the true asshole I have always hated in others. And at this point in my life, I need to finally let go.
Ms. Eigel, I wish you the best. Ms. Gille, you still offended me - but fuck it.
ms. Dennis, it was a pleasure seeing you again.
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