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I'm addicted to livejournal for some reason :O
I've made a post every day for the past several days. Not even sure why.
I'm so tired of midnight shifts at work. I'm really sleepy right now and I have to be at work in less than an hour. I haven't been doing calculus homework either, because I always go to class, then sleep, then work, then sleep. If I could just lump them both together then I wouldn't have to sleep twice per day. Baaahh I don't want to go. Everyone keeps telling me to get a new job, and I agree. But I'm lazy.
Hah I started this entry like this morning, and its 9 PM, and I probably wont finish it until I get off work at midnight. Excuse the random thoughts.
Yep I was right. Off of work now. haha. anyways
I'm not quite sure why I like typing in livejournal as much as I do. Maybe Im socially deprived, or maybe I like rationalizing myself to other people, or maybe I like the thrill of anyone being able to read what I say, or maybe I just want an easier way to talk to people, or maybe I don't really have a reason at all.
Either way, I like voicing my opinions and talking about things that I don't have a chance to talk about with actual people.
I miss a lot of people from UT already. I never really got the impression of having a good, strong, social "group" or "circle" of friends at UT... it was basically just a bunch of random friends that didn't know each other-- which is how I usually make my friends-- so I didn't think I'd really miss any one of them individually. I always just kind of cycled my friends around and so never got all that attached to any particular person. But honestly, I miss them all-- more so than I predicted. Especially people that I havent talked to since I left. I want to get in touch with some of them again, but its hard to pick up the phone and just talk when we've never really done that before.
On that same note, I'm starting to wonder why I decided to stay in Knoxville over the summer. I mean, I could have transferred to a Kroger store in Memphis, I could have gone to Southwest, and I could have saved a shitload of money in the process. Why did I move out into my own apartment when I have very little friends here over the summer and no one to support me? Maybe I rushed into independence? But in retrospect, I wouldn't have it any other way. I would be incapable of staying in Memphis for an entire summer without going crazy. Besides, I'm really learning some good independence skills by living in my own apartment with roommates.
I want to talk about lynn again. I know, sorry. I don't know why, I guess she's been on my mind a little bit more lately. Honestly I think its related to yuni, because I was talking to khoi about her last night. I hate making those connections without trying to. I'll meet someone and not ever think about yuni, but then 4 months later all of a sudden Im like "huh, this girl reminds me a lot of yuni", and then every time I think of one I'm reminded of the other. :X maybe I still have problems. haha.
Well I don't know what to say about lynn. Every time I see something "scene", I think about her, but I don't think of her as particularly scene. When I see a grown person act childish, I think about her, but I think she's really more manipulative to her needs, than she's childish. I have all of these negative connotations about her that spawned from such little things and it makes me feel guilty because they are unfair. Honestly, I just want to think of her as growing, which she is, and I should just sit back for awhile and let her grow. Maybe she'll develop priorities a little more to my tastes, or maybe she will go off in a completely different direction. Who knows? It's kind of exciting, watching things unfurl before your eyes. The only downside is that I'll probably be waiting quite awhile for something to change, and by the time that happens, I doubt we will be on a talking level.
Well, I've done this before. Whatever happens (or doesnt happen) between me and lynn, that's what it'll be. No stress, just a curious apathy.
Khoi and I have been practing a guitar/piano duet for the past few nights. Actually, I've been pretending to play things on the piano while he reads guitar tabs and sings along. He's a lot better than he thinks he is. I keep trying to get him to record a video but he wont. If I can ever get him to and steal it, I'll post it and share with you guys.
I've made a post every day for the past several days. Not even sure why.
I'm so tired of midnight shifts at work. I'm really sleepy right now and I have to be at work in less than an hour. I haven't been doing calculus homework either, because I always go to class, then sleep, then work, then sleep. If I could just lump them both together then I wouldn't have to sleep twice per day. Baaahh I don't want to go. Everyone keeps telling me to get a new job, and I agree. But I'm lazy.
Hah I started this entry like this morning, and its 9 PM, and I probably wont finish it until I get off work at midnight. Excuse the random thoughts.
Yep I was right. Off of work now. haha. anyways
I'm not quite sure why I like typing in livejournal as much as I do. Maybe Im socially deprived, or maybe I like rationalizing myself to other people, or maybe I like the thrill of anyone being able to read what I say, or maybe I just want an easier way to talk to people, or maybe I don't really have a reason at all.
Either way, I like voicing my opinions and talking about things that I don't have a chance to talk about with actual people.
I miss a lot of people from UT already. I never really got the impression of having a good, strong, social "group" or "circle" of friends at UT... it was basically just a bunch of random friends that didn't know each other-- which is how I usually make my friends-- so I didn't think I'd really miss any one of them individually. I always just kind of cycled my friends around and so never got all that attached to any particular person. But honestly, I miss them all-- more so than I predicted. Especially people that I havent talked to since I left. I want to get in touch with some of them again, but its hard to pick up the phone and just talk when we've never really done that before.
On that same note, I'm starting to wonder why I decided to stay in Knoxville over the summer. I mean, I could have transferred to a Kroger store in Memphis, I could have gone to Southwest, and I could have saved a shitload of money in the process. Why did I move out into my own apartment when I have very little friends here over the summer and no one to support me? Maybe I rushed into independence? But in retrospect, I wouldn't have it any other way. I would be incapable of staying in Memphis for an entire summer without going crazy. Besides, I'm really learning some good independence skills by living in my own apartment with roommates.
I want to talk about lynn again. I know, sorry. I don't know why, I guess she's been on my mind a little bit more lately. Honestly I think its related to yuni, because I was talking to khoi about her last night. I hate making those connections without trying to. I'll meet someone and not ever think about yuni, but then 4 months later all of a sudden Im like "huh, this girl reminds me a lot of yuni", and then every time I think of one I'm reminded of the other. :X maybe I still have problems. haha.
Well I don't know what to say about lynn. Every time I see something "scene", I think about her, but I don't think of her as particularly scene. When I see a grown person act childish, I think about her, but I think she's really more manipulative to her needs, than she's childish. I have all of these negative connotations about her that spawned from such little things and it makes me feel guilty because they are unfair. Honestly, I just want to think of her as growing, which she is, and I should just sit back for awhile and let her grow. Maybe she'll develop priorities a little more to my tastes, or maybe she will go off in a completely different direction. Who knows? It's kind of exciting, watching things unfurl before your eyes. The only downside is that I'll probably be waiting quite awhile for something to change, and by the time that happens, I doubt we will be on a talking level.
Well, I've done this before. Whatever happens (or doesnt happen) between me and lynn, that's what it'll be. No stress, just a curious apathy.
Khoi and I have been practing a guitar/piano duet for the past few nights. Actually, I've been pretending to play things on the piano while he reads guitar tabs and sings along. He's a lot better than he thinks he is. I keep trying to get him to record a video but he wont. If I can ever get him to and steal it, I'll post it and share with you guys.