stick a fork in me...
Im done. I'm done with trying to make you happy youre my friend but nothing more im sorry if I wasn't your perfect guy it's hard to believe you ever thought i could live up to your expectations oh wait i forgot... you didnt.I was just a stepping stone something to hold onto in a period of transition i can't believe how close I got. ME OF ALL PEOPLE! why did you feel like you had to prove everyone wrong? you never had to prove anything to me I loved you.I cared for you. i was polite,sweet,funny,and everything you ever said that you had wanted in a guy...but apparently you lied.I feel sad when i see your picture it feels like theres something inside of me thats fighting to be released but i won't let it free because im afraid of how ill react to this situation and im aware its been more than a month and that i shouldve moved on but i can't get over you. You were the ONLY constant thing that i had in my life it was simple i would lie awake and talk to you for as long as i possibly could and then when i couldnt keep my eyes open i fell asleep only to see your sweet face and to hear your beautiful voice once again.I saw a future for us. something that id never done before with anyone you were the one person i could actually see myself with and i swear to god that i couldve gone on forever with you.If you can say that you loved me that you cared for me even if it was only for a second i think that i would be able to let this go but please dont lie to me dont fake your tears again...yeah i know about that.please.if you ever truly loved me let me know. im aware you dont feel the same way anymore and i cant say that i do either all i want is to know if you ever actually loved me or if i was just a puppet in one of your silly games all i know is that you hurt me.all i want is for you to say "i WAS in love with you" or "i never actually cared." either way i just want to know the truth.
lol ok i know that mightve made me sound depressed but im really not i just want to know so i can move on
we went to the sabines last night theyre really good people and i love hanging out over there
GJ is dropping off thebasstoday or so she says anyways...lol then michelle (my bass player) is going to pick it up o yeah and maybe i shouldve mentioned this earlier but i started a band last week it has me on guitar and vocals and it has michelle on bass and doug on drums its pretty sweet and our band name is elemenop (L-M-N-O-P) like the alphabet song lol yeah its cool i think we might be able to pull off the whole rockstar thing.lol i need some hot groupies if your interested let me know :-)
lol ok i know that mightve made me sound depressed but im really not i just want to know so i can move on
we went to the sabines last night theyre really good people and i love hanging out over there
GJ is dropping off thebasstoday or so she says anyways...lol then michelle (my bass player) is going to pick it up o yeah and maybe i shouldve mentioned this earlier but i started a band last week it has me on guitar and vocals and it has michelle on bass and doug on drums its pretty sweet and our band name is elemenop (L-M-N-O-P) like the alphabet song lol yeah its cool i think we might be able to pull off the whole rockstar thing.lol i need some hot groupies if your interested let me know :-)