One of my darker hours
Good Evening all,
Why is it that, when things just become so hard, and near unbareable, it's that exact same time that no one is around to help you, or talk you through it.
I don't feel too good right now, though I guess it was ultimately fate that I ended up in this spot, here, by myself.
I'll start simple and I'll work from there, friday was fuckin hard work, didn't get half of the stuff I needed to get done, that day, I was just glad friday was over at the end of it, Saturday was ok, if anything a bit of hard work which does no one any harm in my opinion, just cleaning up etc and a new business client which will lead to future prosperity, which is very good news. Always nice to get another VIP client.
Sunday was work and golf. More packing, and cleaning, preparing for the big move, to where exactly is yet to be told still waiting on the ever reliable real estate agent to get back to me, which I'm highly concerned about, nether the less, fortune favours the brave, as the latin saying goes, I'll have to wait and see.
Golf was good, played with my grandfather and it was very good fun, played a couple of bad holes, but in the end it was a very good, very fun game.
Today, being a public holiday, I had a break off work, atleast in its business form, and once again continued more packing and cleaning, and also, some car maintenance. Today's pain however, was something which I should have expected, and I should have seen coming, I guess just hearing about it hurts.
You know when you've sort of liked a person on and off and you just can't decide whether you want to make something of it or not, then you finally come to a realisation of it all, and decide you do want to make something of it, and you fall in love with the idea of all the possibilities of what may come of it all.......and then you finally hear, from someone that they are already going out with someone, which they haven't told you about and well yeah, everything, every thought, in your entire mind, just collapses. That happened to me today.
I don't think there's need to mention her name, because I already have in recent previous entries, but ummm, what can I say, I'm a dickhead, lol. I dunno, I really really really don't know.
And so, here I am, looking into this week, with numerous businesses challenges, numerous accomodation challenges, numerous social challenges, maybe a couple of financial challenges, relationship challenges, and of course, a lot of physical challenges, this week, I'll end up driving over 1000k's and I've got lots of work etc to do.
I guess the first thing I should say is god help me, lol. On times of brief desperation, I often look towards my good old starsign and even it says be prepared for drama, and a pretty bloody hard week without a break, it also says the week will be productive but, which I will have to agree with, but this is really really going to test me.
If just one of these area's severally fucks up, then I'll be hanging by a thread this week.
Physically, I think I'll be able to work myself away through this week, but emotionally, I'm really going to struggle.
I should try to think positive, I know that If I can overcome every single challange this week, flawlessly then, that's as hard as life is going to get for a few months and I'll be all good, But know what my instincts are telling me, and this really is one of my darker weeks, I'm in for a bit of trouble, I just have to give it my best and I will have to let luck do the rest.
Goodnight.
Why is it that, when things just become so hard, and near unbareable, it's that exact same time that no one is around to help you, or talk you through it.
I don't feel too good right now, though I guess it was ultimately fate that I ended up in this spot, here, by myself.
I'll start simple and I'll work from there, friday was fuckin hard work, didn't get half of the stuff I needed to get done, that day, I was just glad friday was over at the end of it, Saturday was ok, if anything a bit of hard work which does no one any harm in my opinion, just cleaning up etc and a new business client which will lead to future prosperity, which is very good news. Always nice to get another VIP client.
Sunday was work and golf. More packing, and cleaning, preparing for the big move, to where exactly is yet to be told still waiting on the ever reliable real estate agent to get back to me, which I'm highly concerned about, nether the less, fortune favours the brave, as the latin saying goes, I'll have to wait and see.
Golf was good, played with my grandfather and it was very good fun, played a couple of bad holes, but in the end it was a very good, very fun game.
Today, being a public holiday, I had a break off work, atleast in its business form, and once again continued more packing and cleaning, and also, some car maintenance. Today's pain however, was something which I should have expected, and I should have seen coming, I guess just hearing about it hurts.
You know when you've sort of liked a person on and off and you just can't decide whether you want to make something of it or not, then you finally come to a realisation of it all, and decide you do want to make something of it, and you fall in love with the idea of all the possibilities of what may come of it all.......and then you finally hear, from someone that they are already going out with someone, which they haven't told you about and well yeah, everything, every thought, in your entire mind, just collapses. That happened to me today.
I don't think there's need to mention her name, because I already have in recent previous entries, but ummm, what can I say, I'm a dickhead, lol. I dunno, I really really really don't know.
And so, here I am, looking into this week, with numerous businesses challenges, numerous accomodation challenges, numerous social challenges, maybe a couple of financial challenges, relationship challenges, and of course, a lot of physical challenges, this week, I'll end up driving over 1000k's and I've got lots of work etc to do.
I guess the first thing I should say is god help me, lol. On times of brief desperation, I often look towards my good old starsign and even it says be prepared for drama, and a pretty bloody hard week without a break, it also says the week will be productive but, which I will have to agree with, but this is really really going to test me.
If just one of these area's severally fucks up, then I'll be hanging by a thread this week.
Physically, I think I'll be able to work myself away through this week, but emotionally, I'm really going to struggle.
I should try to think positive, I know that If I can overcome every single challange this week, flawlessly then, that's as hard as life is going to get for a few months and I'll be all good, But know what my instincts are telling me, and this really is one of my darker weeks, I'm in for a bit of trouble, I just have to give it my best and I will have to let luck do the rest.
Goodnight.