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I shall update finally.
OMG life needs to slow down. My life consists of trying to keep up with friends, work, school, MONEY, and countless other things that are constantly changing. *Sigh*. School has a ridiculous amount of reading to do, and a large amount of costly books I need to buy. As well I have noticed I am drifting away from my friends, not all of them, but most of them I barely have time to talk to at all!
I need a cell phone! Its really hard to keep in touch with people when I'm never at home. I really think a cell phone will drastically help me keep in touch with other people. Also I need more money, and I am serious. I leave my house in the morning and go to work, following work i go to school. Basically I'm not home from 9am until 11pm and its costs me a ton to be out all day, food alone is soooo much! And I eat and drink so much its not like I can just pack a lil sandwich for the day or something. In addition school supplies are costing me. So my entire paycheck goes towards school.
My love life is gone, and thats fine. However I feel I will be forever waiting for certain things to happen. I don't know if they ever will but I seem to be waiting nonetheless. I'm not even entirely sure what it is I am waiting for.
I need my own room! This needs to be done soon, I've started converting my dads old office to my room but it is taking forever, i really need it done soon. Im driving myself nuts in my own room. actually i seem to be driving myself nuts no matter what is going on.
My mind seems to be flying towards a mental breakdown or depression. Im not sure which, but it feels like its going a million miles a minute and at some point its gonna crash into something. my stress level is rising. SOMEONE SAVE ME *flails wildly*
I have an ever growing list of things to do and no time or energy to ever catch up to them. i feel like i should just give up on everything and aim to just enjoy life. im starting to wish i had taken a year off before going to university. now that ive started im not gonna waste my cash and just drop out but i sorta think i should have though over this before and not just assumed i was ready for university.
ive noticed my health is deteriorating slowly, i usually have problems with stress taking itself out on my body. im hoping that i get it under control soon cause im going slowly insane.
my computer is DYING. yes DYING! i believe i have overrused it to the point where it is about to fall apart at the seams. it is barely working now. i cant afford a new one. what i wwould love is someone to drop a few grand in my lap to buy a top of the line alienware laptop. i could take it to school and type all my notes into it and use it at home.
im sick of running into fake people as well. people who say they will be there but really wont. people who say they care but just want to sorta stand there and listen but not really do anything! sometimes people like that are great but not right now. i need someone who says ill be there for you when you need help and to mean it, to mean it completely and not have some hidden agenda. someone who will genuinely help you out of the good of their hearts if you ask for help.
When the world is spinning one should always try and maintain sanity by remembering great words of wisdom. I have a few Ive heard along the way:
- Sex is an itch, love is forever.
- Life is too important to take seriously.
- A journey to a friends house is never a long one.
- Never put off today telling someone how you feel about them. Tomorrow they might not be there anymore.
- Always make sure to let your friends know how much you appreciate them. It might be those few words that make them feel like they have something to live for.
- Always remember the people who came before you.
- Being a good person might not impress anyone, it might not make you popular or famous, but at the end of each day you will be proud of yourself, and that is the greatest reward of all.
Thats all I can remember. Some are things I've heard from others and some are things I just have thought up myself over time. I should try and stick to them more myself as well.
The sun will rise tomorrow and another day will start, but what happens to those of us who are not finished with the previous day? Do we get left behind? Do we still exist in this day?
Time for me to end this journal. Enough has been said, points have been made, stresses somewhat vented. The world doesn't stop for one persons problems, so I guess I shouldn't either.
Goodnight all, and to all of you I wish happiness and joy.
- Justin
OMG life needs to slow down. My life consists of trying to keep up with friends, work, school, MONEY, and countless other things that are constantly changing. *Sigh*. School has a ridiculous amount of reading to do, and a large amount of costly books I need to buy. As well I have noticed I am drifting away from my friends, not all of them, but most of them I barely have time to talk to at all!
I need a cell phone! Its really hard to keep in touch with people when I'm never at home. I really think a cell phone will drastically help me keep in touch with other people. Also I need more money, and I am serious. I leave my house in the morning and go to work, following work i go to school. Basically I'm not home from 9am until 11pm and its costs me a ton to be out all day, food alone is soooo much! And I eat and drink so much its not like I can just pack a lil sandwich for the day or something. In addition school supplies are costing me. So my entire paycheck goes towards school.
My love life is gone, and thats fine. However I feel I will be forever waiting for certain things to happen. I don't know if they ever will but I seem to be waiting nonetheless. I'm not even entirely sure what it is I am waiting for.
I need my own room! This needs to be done soon, I've started converting my dads old office to my room but it is taking forever, i really need it done soon. Im driving myself nuts in my own room. actually i seem to be driving myself nuts no matter what is going on.
My mind seems to be flying towards a mental breakdown or depression. Im not sure which, but it feels like its going a million miles a minute and at some point its gonna crash into something. my stress level is rising. SOMEONE SAVE ME *flails wildly*
I have an ever growing list of things to do and no time or energy to ever catch up to them. i feel like i should just give up on everything and aim to just enjoy life. im starting to wish i had taken a year off before going to university. now that ive started im not gonna waste my cash and just drop out but i sorta think i should have though over this before and not just assumed i was ready for university.
ive noticed my health is deteriorating slowly, i usually have problems with stress taking itself out on my body. im hoping that i get it under control soon cause im going slowly insane.
my computer is DYING. yes DYING! i believe i have overrused it to the point where it is about to fall apart at the seams. it is barely working now. i cant afford a new one. what i wwould love is someone to drop a few grand in my lap to buy a top of the line alienware laptop. i could take it to school and type all my notes into it and use it at home.
im sick of running into fake people as well. people who say they will be there but really wont. people who say they care but just want to sorta stand there and listen but not really do anything! sometimes people like that are great but not right now. i need someone who says ill be there for you when you need help and to mean it, to mean it completely and not have some hidden agenda. someone who will genuinely help you out of the good of their hearts if you ask for help.
When the world is spinning one should always try and maintain sanity by remembering great words of wisdom. I have a few Ive heard along the way:
- Sex is an itch, love is forever.
- Life is too important to take seriously.
- A journey to a friends house is never a long one.
- Never put off today telling someone how you feel about them. Tomorrow they might not be there anymore.
- Always make sure to let your friends know how much you appreciate them. It might be those few words that make them feel like they have something to live for.
- Always remember the people who came before you.
- Being a good person might not impress anyone, it might not make you popular or famous, but at the end of each day you will be proud of yourself, and that is the greatest reward of all.
Thats all I can remember. Some are things I've heard from others and some are things I just have thought up myself over time. I should try and stick to them more myself as well.
The sun will rise tomorrow and another day will start, but what happens to those of us who are not finished with the previous day? Do we get left behind? Do we still exist in this day?
Time for me to end this journal. Enough has been said, points have been made, stresses somewhat vented. The world doesn't stop for one persons problems, so I guess I shouldn't either.
Goodnight all, and to all of you I wish happiness and joy.
- Justin