Time for an update...
Well today me and Shawn went to the musicians flea market, and he got a 5 string bass, because he needed one. And I saw some people I knew as always haha. Mark, his guitar player and the other bassist from his band were there. We were shooting the shit and we talked about they drummer thing of course. So he said he's going to try to hook us up with the kid that used to play drums for Hatescar. That'd be sweet, and he knew somebody else that played so we'll see. So other than that that kid Ruben is sorta coming along, he's far from ready but still nowheres in the band. And if we can get somebody else that's more our style and we won't have to teach him pretty much, then oh well shit happens.
But anywho. I don't know which is worse. Not being able to talk to anyone when you need it the most, or not knowing if there is someone out there for you to talk to. I don't know I feel very alone as of late. Maybe it's just coincedence, I hope so. I'd hate to think that my friends don't want to talk to me because of what has been in my journal as of late. I don't want anyone to lose respect for me, or think any less of me. I know I've come off as pathetic or dare I say...emo? But once I get me head straightened out somewhat and figure out for sure 100% what's going to happen between me and Alana, then all I ask is for patience. I won't be like this forever, it just takes a little time.
But anywho. I don't know which is worse. Not being able to talk to anyone when you need it the most, or not knowing if there is someone out there for you to talk to. I don't know I feel very alone as of late. Maybe it's just coincedence, I hope so. I'd hate to think that my friends don't want to talk to me because of what has been in my journal as of late. I don't want anyone to lose respect for me, or think any less of me. I know I've come off as pathetic or dare I say...emo? But once I get me head straightened out somewhat and figure out for sure 100% what's going to happen between me and Alana, then all I ask is for patience. I won't be like this forever, it just takes a little time.