Beware the reavers.
Things of note.
My phone volume always has to be on an even number.
I always take four napkins when I eat at the edr.
If I don't make my bed in the morning it bugs me all day.
Symmetry is beautiful.
Got a's in both my summer classes. New information has led me to put off my cop deal because I have to fix my credit. If you have anything delinquent on your credit report you will get dq'ed and not be able to reapply for a year. I still have some stuff on there from when I was in the hospital(s) that I need to take care of before I go in.
The upside to that? I will finally get my credit back in order AND I can go back to school for the fall. So I signed up for fall classes today. Statistical methods, Abnormal psych and Spanish. Also, combat class starts next Tuesday, can't wait for that.
Gym is kicking ass. Up from 167 to 172. Getting a lot stronger. Six days a week for the win. Going to try to check out Bikram next week if I can find some time.
Everyone needs to play nethack and kingdom of loathing.
Started writing again as well. This is the intro to my new idea. Wrote it the other night.
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This is not a story about redemption. I am not trying to repent for anything. For my deeds. For my sins. That word does not apply to me. Understand this. I do what I do because it is impossible for me to do otherwise. I am hardwired that way. Good and evil, right and wrong, light and dark. These are ideas I don’t have the luxury of subscribing to. Don’t get me wrong, I do have free will, a lot of it actually, I am not just some naïve, unintelligent soldier that believes everything his master feeds him. I have thoughts and ideas that influence my actions just like anyone else, but when it comes to His will, I’m helpless. It was the sole reason I was created. To do His bidding. Not that I really care. This fact doesn’t make me angry or resentful or sad or any one of the range of emotions most humans would feel if placed under a similar contract. I am a killer. A murderer if you will. An assassin. How it rolls off the tongue after so many years. I have come to embrace it. To welcome it with open arms. In the end, you can’t fight what you are. I would be lying if I said I did not try to resist, but shortly I learned that the only way was His way. Comply or be destroyed. What would be the purpose in rebelling? Cease to exist just so some other jackass can instantly replace me and do exactly what I was born to do? Fuck that, I told him. I decide my own destiny. How stupid that statement seems now. To think that I had any choice in the matter seems silly. Ce’es la vie.
I don’t want you to think it’s all bad. The perks definitely outweigh any negative factors. For one, I operate with impunity. Who among the living can say they will never go to hell, no matter what they do. I will tell you how many. Just one. Me. I work outside normal laws. I live a never-ending life free from worry. Well, almost free. I don’t want to lie and breach your trust at the beginning of it all. That would be unfaithful, and we don’t want that.
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Pineapple express comes out next week Lot's of great movies coming out soon. Going to see Batman for the third time on Thursday. Imax. hollar.
Also, saw a screening of War Games on Thursday. Seeing that movie on the big screen was a treat. I recommend it! OLE!
-nick
My phone volume always has to be on an even number.
I always take four napkins when I eat at the edr.
If I don't make my bed in the morning it bugs me all day.
Symmetry is beautiful.
Got a's in both my summer classes. New information has led me to put off my cop deal because I have to fix my credit. If you have anything delinquent on your credit report you will get dq'ed and not be able to reapply for a year. I still have some stuff on there from when I was in the hospital(s) that I need to take care of before I go in.
The upside to that? I will finally get my credit back in order AND I can go back to school for the fall. So I signed up for fall classes today. Statistical methods, Abnormal psych and Spanish. Also, combat class starts next Tuesday, can't wait for that.
Gym is kicking ass. Up from 167 to 172. Getting a lot stronger. Six days a week for the win. Going to try to check out Bikram next week if I can find some time.
Everyone needs to play nethack and kingdom of loathing.
Started writing again as well. This is the intro to my new idea. Wrote it the other night.
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This is not a story about redemption. I am not trying to repent for anything. For my deeds. For my sins. That word does not apply to me. Understand this. I do what I do because it is impossible for me to do otherwise. I am hardwired that way. Good and evil, right and wrong, light and dark. These are ideas I don’t have the luxury of subscribing to. Don’t get me wrong, I do have free will, a lot of it actually, I am not just some naïve, unintelligent soldier that believes everything his master feeds him. I have thoughts and ideas that influence my actions just like anyone else, but when it comes to His will, I’m helpless. It was the sole reason I was created. To do His bidding. Not that I really care. This fact doesn’t make me angry or resentful or sad or any one of the range of emotions most humans would feel if placed under a similar contract. I am a killer. A murderer if you will. An assassin. How it rolls off the tongue after so many years. I have come to embrace it. To welcome it with open arms. In the end, you can’t fight what you are. I would be lying if I said I did not try to resist, but shortly I learned that the only way was His way. Comply or be destroyed. What would be the purpose in rebelling? Cease to exist just so some other jackass can instantly replace me and do exactly what I was born to do? Fuck that, I told him. I decide my own destiny. How stupid that statement seems now. To think that I had any choice in the matter seems silly. Ce’es la vie.
I don’t want you to think it’s all bad. The perks definitely outweigh any negative factors. For one, I operate with impunity. Who among the living can say they will never go to hell, no matter what they do. I will tell you how many. Just one. Me. I work outside normal laws. I live a never-ending life free from worry. Well, almost free. I don’t want to lie and breach your trust at the beginning of it all. That would be unfaithful, and we don’t want that.
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Pineapple express comes out next week Lot's of great movies coming out soon. Going to see Batman for the third time on Thursday. Imax. hollar.
Also, saw a screening of War Games on Thursday. Seeing that movie on the big screen was a treat. I recommend it! OLE!
-nick